Okay.... When I FINALLY finished a report, I get a mail from a teacher telling me an essay of mine is incomplete. Knowing the fact I double checked it, I was completely frustrated.
Turns out that I mixed up 1 assignment and that I forgot to add one. I found it back on my computer, but all I actually know is that this piece is not included in my essay, but I forgot to write down which assignment it was! T_T STUPID ME! It has the same code and says 4SO last, which means it belongs to the essay encoded 4SO but that it was the last piece to be added... probably the piece I went to school for. It HAS to be that! But since I will go to school monday, I might be able to find back the original file name. Otherwise chance is big I will have to re-read that large piece again! T_T And I lost my reader, which means that I can't look up what I messed up. And I couldn't find it online! So, I hope the teacher will help me; otherwise I have no idea what she means O.o
Then I found a second essay that was rejected because of something really minimal! I mean it! Seriously! REALLY minimal!

So, I don't have to add THAT much... a day work to correct both... but the thing is... last time an essay from mine was rejected was at least 2 years ago! And now I have 2 in a row! Any idea how it feels to get essays back while you always practically aced everything? That is so FRUSTRATING!

So, let's recap my week:

Last friday: had to post a difficult message about an RPG

Last saturday: Found about 10 replies from that RPG telling me to stop overreacting AND I had to fight a fight about copyright. A really intense one.

Sunday: finally, things are calming down... a day of peace!

Monday: RPG seemed to have quieted down as well

Tuesday: A handed in plan for an essay I almost finished was turned down (here it really starts...) making me feel I have to redo the entire assignment.

Wednesday: Found a lenghty e-mail where I was accused of taking a hiatus in the RPG just to get things my way. EXCUSE ME?! I'm not THAT childish. I took a hiatus to find myself back!

Thursday: Had to do some form of council or so and worked my ass off to fix the essay where the plan from was handed down. Teacher gave links, links don't work. At that same time dad dragged me along to pick up a table at my sister's place. So, I couldn't finish things, staying in frustration.

Friday: The essay LOOKS finished, and I find an e-mail telling an other essay is incomplete. I go to school, and find 2!!! rejected essays, both on REALLY minor points. Students invite me to sit along them, but I was already frustrated and just wanted to go home. They kept on asking me to come, and I just know I walked away upset saying loudly I just wanted to go home. In the tram I found out the points I had to add in the essay were very easy to fix. At home I find out I am missing a reader; one I need to fix an essay!! I looked up information online, but could barely find anything. I e-mailed the teacher, asking if I understood her right and gave a temporary and short version of the correction (with some luck she either corrects it or gives me addition information where I can look it up). Also managed to find back that missing piece from that essay, even though I'm REALLY hoping that is the missing piece! I'll grab that book on school monday and quickly verify things. Hopefully the teacher has replied then, so I can fix that other part as well. I'll also fix that other part (please, is THAT a reason to reject an essay?! That is an INSULT! Nitpicker. (<~ directed to the teacher)). When that is done, I can FINALLY start on an other essay, one I find harder than the two that were just rejected.

To come:

Saturday: Work. Kyaah. With all that frustration inside me, not much has to go wrong in order me to completely break down.
Sunday: Knowing me, I'll try to fix that essay that was rejected on REALLY MINOR AND INSULTING points because that is about 2 pages. It's insulting because adding these pages does not make my essay a better one. It's a good essay without those two. Seriously. I may not know much, but these pages seriously don't make a difference. One is about 'why is my 'adventure' an adventure' and the other is 'what shall they learn with this lesson and how can you check it'. I have about half a page per lesson on what children learn with each lesson. Appearantly, that isn't enough. She needs it in keywords, big bold font telling her that what I already wrote up is the same as what she wants me to write down.

Can you tell I'm still very frustrated? I can't handle much more....

I feel like crap. In the past 5 days I had to face 4 mayor disappointments. 2 on saturday, 2 today. I can't even tell what it is because some people concerning it might read it and then go all: 'OMG SEE?! SHE IS SUCH A L0SER!'. Look, I can't be friends with everyone, but sometimes I'd like to receive things in exchange of all my giving! And I'm NOT talking about things I can touch, I'm talking about mental things. A relation is a two way track, and right now I have a feeling a certain person expects me to drive all the way to her while she doesn't drive back. Well pardon me, if that is the case, I'm going to take a turn and move off that track.
And additional to that, a report I already worked about 2 weeks on, will need to be almost completely rewritten. Parts of it can still be used, but it makes you wonder why the hell you worked in the first place.

I hate October. Tomorrow I have something stupid school forces me to do because THEY messed up. One hour and a half of talking crap. Why people? Why? Where the hell did I deserve that on?

Only thing I can figure out is that this is post 667, and I haven't post in a while, letting post 666 dance freely on my first page. But since I am actually not THAT superstitious (or how on hell you may write that), I doubt that is it.

Only good thing that happened to me is that more and more people seem to love Forever Young. Season 3 is a lot more dark and dramatic, I noticed that, and season 1 has gained some new fans.
Oh yes, and I will probably lose the domain name www.seken.tk . If I want it back, I need to pay for it. Like hell I will! The deal says you need 25 visitors in 90 days, but they never said they mean that EVERY 90 days! I assumed only the first 90 days. I even re-read the agreement and all. It is never said you need 25 visitors every 3 months. But hey, what can I do?

Besides, as soon as Forever Young gets published, I'll probably get a .com or .nl adress. Or maybe not a site at all.

Who cares.

At this moment, I even want to stop caring.