I feel like all my pieces of art or stories are missing.....something. A spark or so... I don't know. It feels like something is missing....

I must stay awake, I must stay awake. I FINALLY talked to Demi again since AGES and he had to go offline for an hour, but he never got my message telling him I would wait, so maybe he doesn't know I'm waiting for him right now!
Week report time!!

Monday:
I left early to pick up Uumie. We came home quite early and I learned how to use an electric pump with an inflatable matress. Step one: Do NOT blow air into the hole where the air is supposed to go OUT! It's quite hard to blow up a matrass then. But, anyway, we succeeded.
We watched Spirited Away and Uumie thought the same as I did: Very strange movie. I like it though, even though it's strange. I just don't get it O.o. Maybe I'll understand it one day...
That evening we went to Finding Nemo. To be short: MINEMINEMINEMINE - BUBBLES! - I WISH I COULD SPEAK WHALE! - INTERVENTION!
Went home, went to bed and slept.....

Thuesday:
Woke up, my dad took us along to the local mall, walked around, I learned Uumie a new receipe (she doesn't like but heck that's a detail! XD) and that evening we both tried hard to stay up long... but ended up in our beds at 8.30 pm XD Both of us felt quite sick XD Pooor us!
My mom even came by to check on us, and she was very nice: 'Are you nuts?! Do not have a heater this close!'. That's my mom being worried ^_^. That was her being nice btw. We woke up about each 2 hours and all, and then...

Wednesday!: Boy I had trouble getting up and the thought of having a 4 hour trainride again was enough to drag me downstairs and look at my dad:
Dad: Let me guess: if we can drive her home with the car?
Kitt: Would be nicer for me too; then I won't be alone on the way back (I was feeling better again btw)
Dad: Well, your mother and I already decided yesterday we would bring her home...
So, daddy drove us to Uumie's place! And I met her mom! And dogs! And cats!
On the way back, we got in a huge traffic jam. What should have taken us 30 minutes now took more than an hour.
The evening my parents were asked to visit my sister's boyfriend's mini concert (he's in a band). I was quite dissappointed I wasn't asked along, but when I arrived there, my sister didn't seem to mind. Lemme see:
Band 1: Not the best around
Band 2: If this was Idols (Dutch version)... those girls would be crushed by the judges! O.o Man it was OFF KEY! It didn't match at all and the band didn't sound like a band at all!
Band 3: My sister's boyfriend's band (okay, he plays the guitar, but he's good at it so NYA! =P) - not exactly my taste, but the singer had a nice voice (even though I couldn't hear what he was singing O.o) and the band sounded like the practised! (unlike band 2...) It was the best I heard that evening!
Then went home and to bed again....ah.... bed....aah....

Thursday: 1st Christmas Day here
I don't recall what I did... probably restyling Tiamat's gallery. I'm done with hers and it's a lot harder to steal art now. Not impossible, but harder. I didn't think about the adds though... I hope it will still look nice then O.o
Looking at the art may be a bit annoying but you have a certain thief to thank for that....
We also ate pancakes, but the frying pan was a meanie so they failed! Even my mom couldn't get them right!
We taped Pocahontas (Dutch version) and Tiggr's Movie (Original Version, no subtitles) from TV.

Friday: 2nd Christmas Day here
Grandmother came, Sister came, Sister's boyfriend came, and I typed the final part from Silent Threat on our 'new' laptop. It's done now! Woohoo!
We ate 'gourmet' again, like all 2nd christmas days, and to be honest.... I dun like it that much any more.
We taped Mulan (Original Version, no subtitles) from TV and later on watched it. Awesome movie! I wanna wear that 'kimono-like-dress' she wears when saving the emporer too!!
Then went to bed, read some (Yay! I READ!) and went to bed....

Saterday:
Work... bwech. Wasn't that busy but I didn't wanna work T_T. After that my parents picked me up and I went to some Garden Malls - Christmas Sales!!! My mom bought new lights... AGAIN! Last year she bought exactly the same! And I swear, if I dun put my parent's on a leash... I lost them 3 times today! I did find them back though.
Went home, went online, waved at some people, had dinner, went to my grandma's because we're missing some pills and we feared she may have taken it along accidentally (we couldn't call her since she accidentally didn't put the horn on the phone), which she hadn't, so now some pills are suddenly missing.... Then I went online again for something I can not share MUAHAHAHA!
And I have a feeling Demi's not gonna come any more T_T. NOT FAIR!!!
Well, at least you know what happened the past few days!!

Hi Everybody!! Missed me? Has been WAAAAAAAAAY too long =D.
The internship.... finally over for the year 2003. It was tiring, VERY tiring. More things my teacher said to a collegue (which I overheard): 'I have a very smart intern student and she's a computer specialist too!!'
What the...? Just because I have a website, can unplug a computer (and later on hook it up again XD) and came to the idea to play a copied CD through the computer (because 3 other CD players wouldn't take it) I'm a computer specialist?! XD Flattering though, very flattering.
And just because I happened to notice a candle becoming very small and dangerous, I'm smart?? Oh well, thanks for the compliments =D
And guys, I'm truely sorry....... I'll be gone till wednesday evening so no posts till then.... okay, technically I'm not gone. Uumie will stay at my place! WOOHOO! And it's impolite to go behind the pc then ^_^. Unless she wants too. My parents always taught me: Guests First. ^_^. I can't wait!!! I'll pick her up tomorrow morning!
Okay, on with the BLOG! Last Saterday I got my christmas package from my job. It was filled with 3rd world products and to be honest..... last year's was better XD. Okay, the fact we had less than last year doesn't matter.... but.... it was filled with ORDINAIRY things! Only good thing is that we helped 3rd World farmers...
And yesterday was the busiest Saterday of the year at my job. All those Christmas Cards....But anyway, halfway our group manager came and gave us a bag with goodies! A 2nd Christmas Package because this year's efficiency has been way higher than last year! Heck, you dun hear me complaining =D It what was in it was actually BETTER than the Christmas Package XD.
Talking about Christmas, I got a Christmas Gift from my internship school as well.... just dun know where to place it XD. And I went to the school's christmas musical and was on stage as well ^_^. To keep the tone with the kids in the song XD Because they can sing too high if they forget the text XD. Went great!
And the World's Largest Christmas Tree stands in..... Lopik! Near my City! Okay, technically it's not a tree. It's a radio tower. With lots of lights you can even see in Odijk! And that's FAR from Lopik =D. It has been there all my life (only around christmas though) and because of the costs they didn't plan to do it this year... but everybody thought that was no fun at all and they found sponsors!!! And now it's here again!! YAY!
What more? I'm still a bit tired and I cleaned up my room ^_^. It once again looks like a room =D.
Oh, and my dad placed the Christmas Tree (2 actually) and this year I decorated them! (Mom was too tired...). The biggest one doesn't look that great, but the small one rules ^_^. And my mom used MY blue christmas balls! She didn't know they were mine but mom....... you only have silver christmas balls ^_^. Oh, don't get me wrong, I don't mind at all!! I was very surprised she used it! My mom is really great with decorations; she has a great taste!
And.... what more? Eh..... I can't recall XD. Need to prepare stuff for tomorrow......... I hope I can SLEEP tonight =D

Just a little news to the peeps out there. If you followed me around, you know I've got kicked out of an internship and that I had a new one (after 9 weeks...), but that I was on probation (till next week friday). Today I gave my first lesson.
Teacher's reply: 'I can't understand why things went wrong on your previous internship! You did pretty good! And you have to have internship till January? Well, you can come back after the Christmas vacation and finish your internship here!'
Aka: I CAN STAY!! WOOHOO!

I wanted to post this sooner, but I won't be able to post anything till next week's friday, because I have INTERNSHIP! WOOHOO

I am here. Again. This early? Yes!
I had internship. It was pretty cool, but I can't make a judgement yet, because it was true chaos XD. Why? Because of Sinterklaas. The kids were really really hyper and all, but that's okay ^_^. I was quite surprised that they started PRAYING! Not that there is anything wrong with it, but since I'm not religious (ly raised) I had no clue how a prayer goes. I was the ONLY ONE in that class that couldn't. But, she gave me the text so I must memorise it XD.
What more, what more? Was at home at 6 pm. Am very tired... need sleep *snore*
Tomorrow internship again, and friday a day off. Next week internship week (I will probably not be able to update on friday- it may become saterday) and boy I think I will be TIRED O.o
I should sleep better....yeah. Hardly slept again last night. Did have a cool dream though. Kinda Totally Spies, but then with different spies. I believe only Clover was the only one from the series in my dream. The rescue was a great part!! Hehe, a MALE spy =P Same kind of outfit, but then a more male outfit ^_^. Very cool. I do believe I was not in that dream though. It was more like watching tv..... I want to remember it more!!!

Well, tomorrow my fist internship day in weeks again! I'm quite nervous- wish me luck!!
I also had a talk to the School's counselor. He too thinks it may be wise I go see someone to just talk to him. It may let me feel better. The fact that I moved on with my life, doesn't always mean I closed the subject. May be true. He also said that whatever the previous mentors have said to me, that they weren't allowed to say that at all (things like that they doubt if I'll ever be a good teacher). They have goals and the mentors should see if I improved enough. That was all.
But, what bothers me most right now, is that I never thought I was troubled until THEY brought it up. My life was perfectly fine until they went all 'maybe you should get professional help'.
So, I now have to decide if I get help or not... It may be nice to have someone to talk to, but am I really that messed up that I need help? I feel more messed up because of what they said.....

Just to inform you all... I have an internship place... for now at least. The teacher said she was willing to TRY things with me.
That happened thursday.
Friday I went to school for group work, but could leave quite early.... at least after I heard my last 2 hours were cancelled. Also went to my sister's b-friends b-day. I almost cried when my sister sat down with me and telling me I could always stop by if I needed anything. From this monday, she'll be living together with her boyfriend...... it kinda feels like I lost my sister, or that I never had a sister at all......
Saterday I helped around in my sister's place. I'm very good in walking in the way =S Also got a new cellphone (litterary 2 in 1 XD 2 broken cellphones merged into 1 good one XD) but I'll keep the same number ^_^.
Sunday - aka today: be leaving soon so I can draw more!!! Slept till NOON! COOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

Oh my gosh!!! I'm so sorry! It has almost been a week since I posted here! Well, the reason is quite.... simple =S. I'm at school a lot (long days, little classes O.o) and lately I'm in the drawing mood (should have had it earlier, like, when I had to draw the calendar...) so I spend little time behind the computer. Let's see...

Friday:
Went to school for some presentation and then had computer class. I so want a SMART board and Synchroneyes or whatever it's called is SO COOL! With 1 click you can turn of any computer in the same room! MUAHAHAHAHA!!! And the Smart Board is just one huge touchscreen!
Then went with my mom into Utrecht- I wanted to buy the new Elfquest Novel/Manga, but fortunate I had an e-mail telling me one page was printed double. Checked it and YUP! 191 (or 192...) was printed double, so I decided not to buy it.

Saterday:
I had swimming exams again, and for the first time in AGES, I had to swim myself again XD. I had to do ZV2 again, that's a kinda advanced diploma and I needed it so I can get my swimming teacher license. I hardly practised for it (I swam 15 metres underwater as did a polocrawl twice before the exam) and I was quite nervous.
My mom and dad were there too. My dad had went through his back big time wednesday (the doctors almost killed him!! They said: you can take 6 pills a day, while the prescription said: 1 a day - luckily he reads prescriptions before he takes pills...), but he could kinda attend. My mom was an examinator, as well as my dad.
I reached the surface after swimming under water, and the first thing I heard...
Mom: YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN THAT! (Made it anyway, but it was not that far)
Me: THEN YOU DO IT!
After the swimming exam she did it...... and beat me with 2 metres. Luckily I beat her again with 3 metres after that =P
To be short: I passed it!! Has been a great day; everybody went all: 'GO FOR IT!'. And in the end, some teachers were thrown into the water, and my mom and me thought: heck, we'll beat them! And we went in voluntairly. I felt so happy!

Sunday:
I can't remember much of it. Probably lots of sleeping and finishing my report for the summer course. I'm almost done; need some copies and fix things. Maybe I also drew some things..... Don't remember.

Monday:
Depressing day. Long classes, and the final one was 2 hours about Child Abusement. I also saw a video with grown people who were abused as a child, and all were suicidal *sniffs* It made me worried a lot, and I wrote down a poem (see my DeviantArt Gallery) about my feelings; the feelings I have for about half a year now. It's already a bad thing you know someone who is being abused, but it's even worse if that person forbids you to do anything =(. I want to help that person so much, but I can't....

Thursday:
That was yesterday..... mm, can't remember much of it XD. Long day, with PE. I kinda survived it ^_^. No big injuries this time, just some clumbsiness. Still no info about a possible internship. And still no report from Philosofy back... I WANT TO KNOW MY GRADE!! *huffs, puffs*. I guess that was it.

Wednesday:
That was today............ *thinks deeply* I did some work for the site, and worked a bit on the Serenay Moon Kiss doll. Finished all the hairstyles from Mika, Kitt, the Ladies and their human forms. Then went behind this PC, checked a bit of DA and had to give swimming lessons.
Oh yes, and found out Anime Sultan has blocked me from the yahoogroup Dreaming Moon now as well!! He is so LOW! I'm so feeling sorry for him- I am so above him! At least I can handle flames; he just crawls away from them, or banns people so other people won't know the truth! I think he wants to restart Dreaming Moon again. People, don't join, don't draw for him. All his RPG's fail. He wants to be in total control, but he can't handle people. After all, it's an RPG - Role Playing Game. And you can't play that alone. Anime Sultan chases everyone away....
So, who is better than? (that was a retorical question).

*grins* Sorry, just remembered my very first flame. It was so funny. I said Bush was a jerk because he thinks gay people are not humans, and then the flame was: 'You act like gay people are human beings!' That was so fun! Of course gay people are humans! Why shouldn't they be a human being?
So, you kinda know what has been going around in my life. Still no internship, and lots of drawing time.... but that means I can't talk to you XD Argh, life is HARD!

Yesterday. Workshops.... WASTE-OF-TIME! It was boring, it was useless, and people were unprepared. Quotes from yesterday:
- 'I'm sorry I'm late (15 minutes!!!). Well, let's talk about the rights of Children (it was supposed to be about Children in war; did you know the USA did not recognises the Universal Rights of Children?!) - oh, I see my CD is gone. My son must have taken it out; he loves the songs (sure, blame it on your kid that you are not well prepared).'. We then had more talks about the rights of kids, and 15 minutes of video about a kid-soldier.
- No quote from the man from the 2nd workshop. He smelled out of his mouth. Terribly!
- 3rd workshop: 'Till when do I actually have time to talk?' (Till now; new group is already waiting sir.) 'What?! I have to tell this all again?!'
- 4th workshop. 'Here you have some subjective statements. What is right and what is wrong?' (is there right and wrong in an opinion?!)
I also got my grades back the 'Rights from Children; - or something close to that.
Report: A+ (aka 10; woman tells all classes she has never seen such a great report XD)
Exam: A (aka 9; I had 3 mistakes out of the 36 questions XD)
I suddenly had trouble breathing when I heard that.
Went home (FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!!!!!!!!) and heard my dad had gone through his back, but was still able to walk. Yesterday evening (just after I left from swimming >_<) my mom could pick him up from the pool and bring him to the hospital. O.o My dad is now in his bed, and can't come out for a couple of days XD.
And yesterday: Scotland - Netherlands; soccer match. Last saterday we already played against Scotland and we lost big time. Everybody thought: This time we'll loose again.
0 - 1 - Hey, nice goal. Hehe; they'll still loose
0 - 2 - Mm, they seem to be playing like a team this time! Scotland will still catch up.
0 - 3 - Excuse me?! But I bet they'll loose that anyway. Scotland needs to win with 1 point and the Netherlands with 2; they'll get too confidant now.
0 - 4 - HUH?!! Scotland was so great Saterday; how is this possible?!
0 - 5 - NO WAY!!! The coach/ trainer sure made a great choice of players this time and this time: they are a team!!!! (they lacked that XD)
0 - 6 - *has fainted* This is so bad XD. Poor Scotland. We once won with 0 -5 from I believe Argentina, but this.... wow. Now we'll still go to the European Championships XD.
And afterwards, the players refused to talk to the press. Probably because the press had said so much bad things about their trainer/ coach and themselves ^_^ I thought it was so funny XD

DAMMIT! Yes, I'm swearing now. Why? I got a mail from a friend, telling me his friend commited suicide. I know both boys, and both share one e-mail account. I ran into panic to my mom- I couldn't believe it! The second friend I know commited suicide!!!
Then I saw another mail: 'SHEESH! Everyone! If anyone has been sending you mails about **** commiting suicide, they're NOT from me!! It's a hacker!
We'll close this account and start a new one. He's also hacked my blog and the site we're setting up. Don't believe them!!!'
DAMMIT!! This is NOT a joke!
Just to make it clear: It was a joke. My friend did NOT, I repeat NOT commit suicide.
This is not my idea of a joke. I already lost a friend because of suicide; I honestly believed this! I knew both boys were kinda mixed up with themselves... and I even have a suspision who may have done this. Because someone suddenly has a lot of free time because of my 2 friends.
This was such a low joke. If I ever find him, I'll first kick Anime Sultan between the legs, and then that guy!! VERY HARD!!

*just sits there with a happy smile* I do not wish to talk about Anime Shit (as I called him) today. Why not?
SINTERKLAAS ARRIVED TODAY!
And to those who do not know who Sinterklaas (aka Saint Nicolas, aka St. Nic) is; he's the guy a certain man, dressed in red, with elves and reindeers is based on. And I know he's fake. Okay, he existed once in Myra, Turkey, but at this moment he's more fake than ..... something that is really fake.
Yet, why do I suddenly feel so happy inside? Why does he suddenly feel so real? And hell, why did I almost cry when seeing him wave and smile? He's fake!!!
Yet, this guy in red and on the white horse just gave me such a nostalgic feeling I couldn't help but feeling happy, and to get the wish to help organise it one day. And to talk to him. To the guy with the beard. Or his 'Pieten'.
Sint rocks my socks (thanks for the phrase Luna P XD). He's fake, and somehow, in this time of year, he feels so real.
Sinterklaas has begun. Please... never end.

Since I've been banned from GenieHime; the group with the stolen art, and since Anime Sultan did not reply, I reported him to Yahoogroups and Angelfire. I pray they can do anything about it.
I also reported him to Web Art Watch. That Anime Sultan may get a huge virus on his harddrive and that his entire computer blows up.

He has done it again! Anime Sultan has stolen my art again!!! Right now I'm very eager to kick him so hard between the legs he's better of as a girl!!!
Please help me!! This is the second time he stole my art, and I know he stole Demitri Sacaramanga's art as well!!
That jerk is ruining all the fun!!!!!

Thuesay I watched The Matrix on tv. Somehow it dissappointed me. I already saw it once and was all 'Ooh' and 'Aaah' about it. Maybe I was dissappointed because I had already seen it?

Wednesday... man.... that field trip had 'useless' written all over it!!! No kidding! It was even BEYOND useless. We had to travel a long way and then it was: 'fill in this form. Then fill in that form. Now we'll go to city hall and fill in another form. You may go home now.' What a waste of my time!!
Next I had swimming lessons to give and I said who could go to their swimming exams and who not. I asked my dad to take 2 kids because I thought they would be better in deeper water. I said they could go to the exam as well. Later that night I heard from my dad I shouldn't have let them go... I FEEL AWFULL! I never made a bad decision before!! And they were not that bad! My dad says he'll fix it in those 2 weeks but I feel awfull! I feel so... such a bad teacher!!
My confidence is more shaken then ever......

I'm sorry I don't post that much lately peeps. All I would have to say would be bad news anyway. Or just very short. You guys deserve better ^_^. So, a short recap of the past few days!!!

- Saterday:
I worked and on my work I had some sort of review about how I worked there. Everything was good; I only had one bad point. Guess what? 'Clothes'. Well, can't disagree with that! We have clothes from work (sorta like uniforms) and we have to wear that.... which I don't do XD. My boss agreed that the pants are a hell to wear and I don't have to wear that one (Yay boss!). I do have to wear the sweaters, but it's only winter clothes so I said it was too hot for that. I can order summer clothes now! And that means a white blouse! Okay, I hate those things, but heck, it's white, plain and not so horriblely ugly like the rest XD. I'm so gonna do that then!!
After work I went home and later had to go to some swimming exam for observation. I went (didn't want to go, might I add!) and my dad signed me up for a certain diploma as well. Sure, it's easy.... but 15 metres under water?! I haven't swam for about a year!!! How am I supposed to do that?! *goes praying* And I only have a few weeks to practise... which means 10 minutes every wednesdayevening :( NO FAIR! And he is worried about the polo-crawl... I'm not; it's a stroke I always use XD.
During that exam, I saw a todler climbing from the stairs. Very adorable. All of a sudden he slipped and hit with his head the stairs!! And I found out I can't handle crying XD I must cry then myself almost as well XD. Anyway, kid cried and I was really worried. He hit the edge!!! A pointy edge!! Luckily he only got a small cut. *phew*

- Sunday
Did some homework. Yup. I also did some UFO doll making. Finally finished ChibiChibi XD I am so slow... Cosmos and Cere Cere + Sailor Ceres are done. Next is Jun Jun, Palla Palla and Ves Ves (and their Senshi uniforms). I also made 2 wallpapers out of art that Uumie did.

- Monday
Went to school. Bored like hell. I have an annoying teacher for a new subject. That woman needs to retire. She YELLS and INSULTS her students!! And she thinks I pay attention.......... *nods and smiles*
I made a new drawing which is featured in my DA gallery. I used crayons so it was kinda a bit messy after using black. Dad came home, saw that and went beserk! I would have cleaned it dad!!! He was angry and god knows why... He says I always make a mess and never clean up.... mom said today he was just really tired and since I never clean up that well... Anyway, I cleaned up, but dad kept on looking if I did well. Very annoying. I didn't even bother to tell him I made that picture for him. I'm still angry about it. My dad may be very cool every now and then, but sometimes he can be such a ... a... dad. I can't hate him. I don't want to hate him. But I am angry at him right now. Who can blame me? I wanted to draw a picture for him and then he yells at me!!!

- Thursday
I hoped to finish a school-project today, but it was way more then expected. I'm halfway now and will finish thuesday (since I still don't have a place for internship). Tonight I'll finish a Calendar page. Then I only have 2 left.

GO SEE GO SEE GO SEE GO SEE GO SEE!!!
*is too happy beyond words*

Edit
If I'm unlucky, my new internshipplace may be in Tiel... which means getting up at 5.45 am just to get in that place on time, which is 7.50 am. For one day in the week that is managable... but for an entire internshipweek? And my dad says I must accept it! Internship is internship! HELL, even for my work I never had to get up before 6 am!! And then he goes whining about getting my driver's license and that it would make things easier..... I'll never manage to get that thing before the end of the schoolyear so what's the freaking use of mentioning it?!
Why do I pray they say no right now? I don't want to get up at 5.45 am! Just because they messed up, I have to pay! I thought my luck had started changing for the better again, but no.... I think this is one messed up year. All because of school.
And everybody just keeps on saying I should stop complaining.........

Sunday I had a terrible headache, and monday it finally cleared a bit. I went to school, but still no internship place. Yay me *sarcasm*.
At home, my mom and I went shopping for my aquarium... and then I was so embarressed at the cash deck. I suddenly so feel like a student. And this time, it's my school's fault!! *blows up school*
Luckily mom was there too. I felt aweful, but luckily I had a great friend who said today would be better.
And right now I have to hunt her down. *is armed with cookies and peanuts to throw at her*.
Today I had PE. Not such a bad thing to have since I can't do that much because of my bad leg. The result:
~ Tennisball in my face
~ Tennisball against my back
~ Bat against my leg
WHO SAID AGAIN TODAY WOULD BE BETTER?! *is armed* Only good thing was that it didn't happen at the same time. And the girls who caused it felt aweful. (And that, my friends, is why there exists a rule that says: put the bat in the basket; the darn girl let it slip from her fingers and woosh-woosh-BANG; I was a fieldplayer dammit! I need an extra life insurance when I play in the field)
And with picking teams, I suddenly heared whispering: 'Pick Kitt!' And I went all: HUH?! ME?! Why? The best players were picked, and then they started choosing less great players. I was among those. I was picked halfway instead of last!!! I was chosen before the twinkies!! WOOHOO!
And some girls of my class just can't handle loosing. When the ball went towards the bench, they grabbed it and tossed it over! The teacher saw that =P.
I also tagged someone out (it was some sort of indoors softball) but the teacher didn't see it. And my group went all: Oh, we know you tagged him out but it's just a game so who cares. And that's how I thought too!
Hehe, and we still won ^_^. Woohoo!
But honestly, since I got kicked out (oh, correction, pulled back) from my internship, I'm suddenly so populair =D. Cool! I gotta have misfortune more often =P.
And Mari-chan says I'm a good writer; she read the interview-report I had with that teacher from my internship. Hehee! People say I can write well! (She's number 4 or 5 already =D)

Spider! Big Spider! Less then 1 metre away from me!!! *screams* I swear, my future husband musn't be afraid of spiders! I'm the one who needs to be saved! My sister is also afraid of spiders, but her boyfriend is more scared O.o I need a heroic guy to save me from these monsters....
It turns out that Yorkiddin, the channel that airs Sailor Moon, will stop to exist in January =(. And, they also annouced that they haven't bought any more eps of Sailor Moon, so I guess we're stuck =(. No more Sailor Moon.... just the first half of the first Arc of Sailor Moon R... no ChibiUsa... no Hotaru.... *sad, sad sighs*
What more? I went to the final day of theory with the stupid course. Dad and I left earlier because we had to. Was kinda a useless day and I don't have a great examination task.
'Enkelvoudige Rugslag', for those who understand Dutch. Wouldn't be such a problem, but my target group is end B begin C; which means they should already master it! But, my dad says that the group I'll get will be terrible so that I have enough to teach.
What more, what more? I bought an Aquarium, and I'll get fish from my mom, as well as plants, because she has too much in her aquarium. I also bought Pokémon 4Ever; intresting movie and halfway I already knew the truth about Sam XD. It was an intresting movie and all characters cried a lot. Oh yes, and Brock and Team Rocket all had new voices =(. No fun.
Oh yes, and been very tired past few days. And no kidding. I feel like I could fall asleep at the spot!
And I caught a cold. Not a great combination.
Anyway, I'm thinking about writing a new Mini Series for Serenay Moon. Season 3 still isn't finished and I doubt we'll end Season 4 in the year it will take to post Season 3.
Anyone has suggestions on how I could avoid weeks without updates? Or, that I'll change it to 1 week story, 1 week no update, 1 week other stuff, 1 week no update, 1 week story etc?
I could really use some advice. I'd rather avoid the every 2 weeks an update, but it might be the only way I can guarantee regular updates. I could really, really use some advice.
Oh, and I might not update in the Christmas Vacation. I hadn't had a Summer Stop this year, so I might as well have a Christmas Stop ^_^.
Oh, and the link you gave in the comments Sol Nuada... eh... I'm not sure where to look. Or is it a broken link or so?

To the peeps with LJ's. I do read your posts, I just can't respond on it any more... I dunno why; it just never posts. Sometimes errors, sometimes they demand my LJ code. Which I don't have......

Warning! Talking about my dreams-rant! Some people thought this was actually happening to me, but they are all dreams! ^_^

Anyway, they always want me. At least, in my dreams. My mom says it's because of those stories I'm writing. But, I somehow base my stories on my dreams! Vicious (sp?) Circle? (Visieuze Cirkel) Or is there some other explanation?
Most of the time, my dreams are about these subjects. Last 2 nights, I had dreams about this.
Most of the time, there is a battle. Sometimes it's not a friendly one (like 2 nights ago), and sometimes it is (like last night). Most of the time I play an important role in the battle.
Sometimes I'm the leader, but sometimes I'm not (which rarely happens btw. Last night I was not the leader. There were only 4 girls in the groups, and 3 were in mine. Cat was also in my team, as well as a girl I can't recall. Anyway, I was not the leader, but I was the one who ordered to attack....). Sometimes I don't even feel connected to one team, or am litterary between the groups.
Either way, there are always people who want to kidnap me, or kill me. Kill me more frequent btw. Even if there is not a battle going on, people still often want to kill me. I'm a very likable target.
Last detail, is that often a guy plays a role in it.
2 night ago I had a dream that I was caught in a battle, while I belonged to neither groups. A few people wanted to kill me, and when it looked they would succeed, a guy saved me. It was a friend of mine I haven't seen for almost 2 years!
Last night there was a friendly battle. The opponent team attacked us without warning and stole things from us for fun (and that while we weren't even ready yet! How mean). People had accepted me (somehow) as a leader, but they disagreed at the same time. There were only 4 girls in the game. Spying was already out of the option (since the other team has only 1 girl) and we would be in great danger if any of us would be the leader. Cat was also in my team, and I didn't know the other girl.
Anyway, we faked an attack, and of course, it failed. The enemy thought we were easy preys and attacked us again, but I yelled: 'NOW' and tadaa! We trapped the enemy and the battle began. My team was so smart! ^_^
But now the connection with the guy I mentioned. A guy from the other team (he looked handsome!! *sees people staring at her*..... never mind) said he wanted to be with me, and even betray his team for me. And somehow... I disagreed. I thought it was too dangerous.

To be short, my dreams are mostly about battles (friendly or not), people wanting to kill or kidnap me, and a guy often plays a big role.
Unlike what many people think, these dreams are not scary. They may sound so, but I'm never afraid.
But if anyone has any clue what my dreams may be telling me.... Fire away!

Gosh, I did so much yesterday and today. But all small things. Let's review....

Monday:
I started off going to school to object to the fact I was send away from my internship. My councelor said I understood it wrong; SHE had made the decision and not that &*(^&*^%&* mentor. I told her I still disagreed because I couldn't defend myself, and she asked: 'What was there to defend? It wasn't anyone's fault!'
My dad's response: 'That wasn't what she said in the beginning'.
She also said that that school had certain rules and they expect us students to know that..... My response (as well as my dad's; btw, I thought this): 'Why didn't they tell me that?!'
But, we had little time, so I could escape quickly. Then I went to the station, and stepped on a train. Called Uumie, who wasn't reachable at the moment (even though she was) and when I called her again, the connection went up and down so it took us 10 seconds before we knew we had the right person XD.
On the station in Maastricht, I waited a while for Uumie. Man it was freezing there! She had some trouble reaching me, but in the end she arrived so it was all well... even though my toes are still freezing =P.
While having lunch, Uumie gave me this superawesomesuperdupermegatasticenormousfantasicüberkawaiicool framed picture of Naraku, and I immidiately had a scene in my head ^_^. I worked it out now. Okay, not that much, but Naraku will wear that outfit in the beginning of Season 6 ^_^.
Oh yeah, and I got the MTV video clip from Suteki Da Ne!! It's pwetty, but the pic of Naraku was prettier!!!
To be short: Had a great day. Was great to see The Uum again. Really great. I also bought 3 books for 6 euro, which I already wanted anyway. And Uum and I send a post card to someone.
And never mess with the Uum. Never. Ever.
On the trainride home, I finished 'De Griezelbus 5', which I thought was so not scary and unusual for the series, but it was AWESOME! It had a great ending! PAUL VAN LOON RULES!!! *throws herself at his awesome and all mighty feet*. If I ever meet him, I'm gonna thank him for being such an inspiring person.
It was also Demi's 21st birthday ^_^. Yay for Demi!!!! Uumie and I toasted on him and I thought a lot about him because of something that happened today....

Today:
Got bored to death. Made 2 drawings for the Calendar; gonna colour it soon... I hope.
Went shopping. Bought Christmas stuff (I'm so ashamed; Sinterklaas hasn't even arrived yet!!! I should be punished....) and a gift for my dad.... which he actually liked!!!! He often says I buy nice gifts, but that they are kinda useless. (But then in a nice way!)
I bought him a mini magnetic whiteboard with lots of magnets.
Went home, draw a bit more, and then had dinner. And, my mom never noticed I bought new figurines for her XD They were above her bed and she never noticed.
Went online, and after a while Demi came.
Le bird blauw has landed!!! Yup, my gift to Demi-chan ^_^. If you wanna know what was in it....... ASK HIM!!!!!! NYA.....
But I used too much tape, so he didn't notice there was a letter in the front O.o
(Courage: *pointing at Kitt* Baka, Baka, Baka)
Anyway, he said he liked it a lot, so yay for me, and my mom ^_^. And then he had to leave for school. He said he can use something I send him big time ^_^. Yay! Yay!!!
And another spelling for stroopwafels has been invented......

Hotmail is acting très weird. Yeah. Very.
Anyway, yesterday I saw something that frightened me more than spiders and sharks. And anyone who knows me, knows I'm terribly afraid of those. Yesterday during work, I was simply minding my own business.
Suddenly, I saw a little kid, maybe 2 years old on his tricycle. A very cute view, how this tiny boy rode his bike ^_^.
ALL OF A SUDDEN THAT KID RODE ON THE ROAD! It seemed like he was actually looking if there was no traffic coming but oh my gosh... a 2 year old... on a tricycle... on a busy road!
I was so relieved the cars saw him so they passed him but oh my gosh... I doubted wheter I should get him or not... After all, he was not my business (nowadays if you save a kid, you get almost sued for touching him =S).
I already imagined seeing the mother running out and screaming for her kid. But no one came. Suddenly a larger boy came to the flat and yelled up:
'He doesn't want to come home!!' I looked better and I saw his friends had taken care of him; apparently it was his little brother.
'Then you watch him!' Oh my gosh?! WAS THAT THE MOTHER?! It was! She didn't care at all about the fact that her 2 year old (maybe 3) was crossing a busy road?!
I talked about it with another woman in the flat. She told me that a lot of people in those flats don't care about their kids. After all, last May a kid fell from the flat and died. And it seems no mother has learned from it...
I was so afraid... I already imagined seeing that kid being hit by a car...
But the mother didn't seem to care at all...

There is not much to say. Yesterday I watched the SPECIAL EDITION from the Lion King with the extra scene... wow... that was so... well, actually, I didn't like it that much. I like the original version better.
I also did 2 more drawings for the calendar yesterday. Just 3 to go....
AND YESTERDAY I MANAGED TO STAY IN BED TILL 11!!!!!

Today:
Finished my day reports from my old sucky internship. Random quote:
'We now know how a Megalosaurus looks like, because men draw pictures of them on the walls of caves...' (quoted from Mia, that ***** who was the teacher and ready to retire)
Gosh, and I thought humans arrived on the planet a long time AFTER the dinosaurs got extinct!
Anyway, I found out one of our fish passed away. So, I sms-ed my dad (because he knows how to sms and my mom doesn't =S).
'A male gup died; the prettiest one.'
Reply: 'Memorial service? One minute of silence for the dearly departed'
Oh, so dad thinks he can fool me now?! MUAHAHAHA! This was MY reply: 'The family appreciates your sympathy.'
And then it got silent. I WON!!! (not that it was a contest.....)
Did some groceries and now off to update the website. All I have is art from me XD. Not much eh?

Yesterday I bought 2 My Little Pony DVD's. Ah, made me feel like a small girl again =D. It's so cute (and stupid at the same time XD hardly any real plot, sucky songs and so many mistakes)!!! I hope they'll bring out other eps I remember from my childhood. I remember an episode with a big stone dog that stoned everybody. And where a pony picked up Megan for the first time... they announced 2 more DVDs.... I wonder which ones are on it!!! And for only 5 euro.....
AND I'M CURSED! CURSED I TELL YA! Each time I want to sleep long, there is something that wakes me up. A beeping watch, a truck going through the streets, bricks being unloaded, and, the most frequent thing: THE FREAKING PHONE!!!! LEAVE ME ALOOOOOOOOONEEE!!!! *yells from a cliff accompanied by lightning*
Besides that, not much to tell. Drew a lot today. Colouring tomorrow. Won't post it... for a long time =D

Today I had my 4th meeting from someone online. So far this is the score:
~ Togepi (Went GREAT! She's AWESOME!)
~ Uumie (WAAAAAAAAAAAAI I'm gonna visit her soon again! 4th time then already!)
~ Sol Nuada (Great guy; I just talk way too much. AND I STILL HAVE MORE PREVIEWS THEN HE DOES!!)
~ F@ceman (He's really nice! I kinda felt like the little sister tagging along with her big brother ^_^).
And to be honest, all these great meetings make me more nervous for a really big one coming up next summer. WHAT IF I DISSAPPOINT HIM?!
Anyway, today I went to Alkmaar to meet F@ceman. I recognised him really fast; actually, I recognised his shoes =P. And somehow I just felt it inside. That was him. He tried to take me to a Comic Shop there, but he kinda forgot where it was so he called a friend. We found it and I browsed the Manga section. They have Chobits there ^_^. But anyway, no Sailor Moon or Tenchi Muyo ^_^. We were there so long; he was doubting wheter or not to buy some things.
We walked on and I had a bit of history information as well! That was quite intresting! If I'm on a tour I wouldn't be intrested, but since this was mentioned while we were walking, it was cool =D.
We ate in the V&D; he paid my lunch! I'm so not used to that XD Most of the time I pay dinner for others XD. We talked a lot, about being a teacher (he already is one... or a senior XD) and he said that the reason I got kicked out of my internship is not justified. He explained why and agreed on my subjects: 'you shouldn't show small kids how well you can draw' and 'when you only have an A swimming diploma, you shouldn't swim without parental supervision' (many people in the Netherlands think that when kids get their A swimming diploma (the first one) that they can let their kids go swimming witout them looking after them. It's only kinda okay when you have A and B, and preferably C as well); my internship disagreed on both points.
He also gave me some advice on how to teach. Especially maths, since I so suck at giving that.
He told me stories about his students and he sounds like such a great teacher!
Anyway, we walked on, and it turned out he was looking for a stuffed plushie from Bob the Builder. Okay, he may be a Comic Expert, but I'm a Toys Expert!! I found it for him =D. I also saw a Bulbasaur Treat Keeper and decided to take it along. At the cashdesk I only said: 'The treats are missing though' and BAM, from 1.29 euro to 0.50 euro! I didn't disagree at all =D.
After that he drove me to the station in his car and we said goodbye. And boy, some people on Utrecht Station are so PUSHY! Litterairy! Sometimes I just walk slower to annoy them; that shall teach them pushing me around!

I would like to thank everybody who supported me in the past few days. However, the war ain't over yet (in a figure of speech). I would really like to thank my dad and F@ceman. Both convinced me to go and talk to my mentor.
My mentor wasn't there, so I talked to the other teacher from that internship. The second I started noting, she became so cranky XD. On advise of my dad I can't tell you what she said, but well...
The reason I got send away... well... it's just too STUPID for words! Man, this is so UNFAIR! Because of 1 bad remark (which was intended as irony and anyone with brains would have asked what I meant) and because I didn't do as they expected. But... NO ONE EVER corrected me!!!
I admit I made mistakes.... but they never corrected me! That means THEY made mistakes as well!! Like I said to a friend of mine: you can't improve if you don't know what you've done wrong...
Anyway, during that talk I felt so superior; especially when I heard the reasons. Those are NO reasons to send someone away! At least... in my world =S (I hope others agree). I stayed polite, and kept on noting. NYA. She was so cranky.
BUT.... (this so works, thanks dad!)... the second I put the top on the pen and stopped writing (closed the notebook too) she was suddenly so nice, and I managed to get some statements out of her mouth which can be proven usefull one day. I hope I won't be needing these notes ever, as well as that the people from my next internship will have brains.
Still, the fact I got send away still bothers me =(. I still feel odd. So, some tips if you have to do a talk you know that will be unpleasant:
~ Write your questions down and make sure they get answered!
~ STAY NICE!!
~ STAY POLITE!
~ Stay very understanding, even if you disagree. Apologise if you feel it would improve the mood, but don't apologise for EVERYTHING!
~ Repeat and summerize some statements from the other (then you show you are listning)
~ Make notes. They feel threatened by that.
~ When you think you got answered all your questions, put the top on the pen and close your notbook. Don't touch it anymore. Get your brains ready, because the real talk starts then then!!! When the threat is gone, they say more and even things you never asked for.
~ But, MOST IMPORTANT: STAY POLITE!!!!

Today I shopped for my 'tomorrow-my-friends-will-come-who-I-haven't-seen-for-a-long-time' night and THE BLUE BIRD HAS LIFTED OFF!!! Can't say muc more... WOOPS! Gotta go!!!!! Otherwise I'll come late for Swimming Lessons I must give!!!

My councelor told me how her conversation with my mentor went; concerning my internship.
'She has the feeling she won't be able to guide you the right way. Thursday is your last day.'
To be short, I've been kicked out of my internship. Reason? She is so closed-minded, and she was hoping for an intern who didn't need any guidance.
Oh wait, that's not what my councelor said. She said that we've started off the wrong foot and that it's my fault. They will look for a new place and I'll get heavy guidance.
She knows I want to continue this education (I said that a few times), and she still has faith in me... but she wonders if this is the right education for me....

You won't believe it... today wasn't a complete waste of time! Yeah, I had that stupid course again. And many people still think I like them... Anyway, got critism about my lessons I would really shove it up their.... well, fill in whatever you want. Me? TOO playful? Then you've obviously have never seen me with kids!!
But, when we had a small break, I spend my time swimming in the pool. Has been a while since I was able to do that. And it felt awesome!! The sun was shining in the water, and I did everything I simply adored to do; which is mostly being under water and so ^_^.
Then I was wondering... how would it look what I was doing? I think it would have been pretty intresting moves to draw. I would really love to observe some figure swimmers just to get inspiration about how to draw stuff like that, as well as some new insights about the human body (aka: what can a human body do in the water, and what can't it do).
I know I'm not Miss Universe, but I would love to draw what I've been doing...
And, something else happened:

*Kitt goes to the bathroom*
Voice: MOMMY!! MOMMY!!
*peeks into the bathroom; sees nothing*
Voice: MOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMY!
Kitt: Okay, calm down. Are you locked in?
Voice (girl): Yes (you could hear her about to cry)
Kitt: *smile* Don't worry, I'll get you out of here, and if not, I'll get someone to help you, okay?
Girl: .... okay...
Kitt: It's okay. Don't worry. Let's see if my keys will work.... mm.... not really *sees woman coming from the bathroom next to it* Could you please get some help miss?
Miss: Sure..... but first wash my hands.
Kitt's thoughts: 'What?! The girl was screaming, you calmly did what you had to do and now you want to leave that poor kid locked there even longer?! What kind of woman are you?! YOU WERE SITTING NEXT TO HER AND DIDN'T DO A THING!!!!
Kitt: Never mind, it's already working.

And the worst thing? I feel all proud.... and everybody else says it wasn't that special what I did... I bet they've never been locked in the bathroom themselves....

I don't believe I posted yesterday. Not that something happened... during swimminglessons, I suddenly got 2 newbies. Wouldn't have been a problem.... weren't it for the freaking fact that the other kids are already on a too high level! I litterary have 2 groups now! And one group I can't pay attention to! So annoying.....
Today I went to my internship again. Gosh.... I actually like my mentor now!!! *looks outside* No, no pig flying.... Not only that, I actually only got 1 comment!!! The world is going insane.....

I'm so sorry guys! Has been way too long! I simply didn't have much time =(. I kinda now have time again.... not much, but a bit.
Friday:
My mentor suddenly said: 'I like this conversation much more than before; at least now you can handle critism!'
I thought: 'Huh?! I can handle critisism; I can't handle people saying I'll fail after 1 lesson!'
My mentor is simply plain stupid. She doesn't think; she only talks.
Saterday:
I couldn't go home after work. I simply couldn't. My collegue J. had taken along MY jacket instead of his, and my keys were in my jacket XD. Luckily we're often around the same time finished, so I only had to wait 10 minutes ^_^
I also noticed I missed a lot of phone calls. I wondered who they were from. Turned out that a father of one of my friends was verifying unknown numbers. I understand ^_^. We do that too.
Sunday:
I helped my sister in her house! Woohoo! I painted! A lot! And I didn't even get paint on myself!!
And then I went out of dinner with my parents and they had to embarress me..... DOH!
Monday:
I was so tired, I napped during day and was still freaking tired.
Tuesday:
Still freaking tired, and went shopping with my mom. I bought Melisande part.... eh.... the latest one. I planned on writing FY 76; but it's too late now XD. I'm so tired. Poor me!!

Okay, I had to face my mentor again today. She asked if she could read my day reports, and I went a tad oops, because I mentioned the 'if you don't improve soon, it will all be lost'. I think I shocked her with that, because today's quote is......
'But I didn't mean it that way!!'
Of course you didn't, of course you didn't *sarcasm* You DID mean it that way. She actually said it again, but now in other words. 'If you don't improve soon, this internship shall be a lost one.'
She was übernicely to me today. And I stunned her with my story telling abilities. ^_^. She was gone and I had to fill time, so I let the kids clean their table and then asked them what I should tell a story about.
A kid said: "About a... I know! It looks like a snake, but lives in the sea...'
Me: An eal (spelling?)?
He: No, no!
Kids: I know a better one!!
Me: No, wait, let Chibi-M finish.
Turned out to be a Murene ^_^. It immediately reminded me of a t-shirt my mom has and I told a story. They LOVED IT! The actually wanted me to tell another story! Or the first one I told!!
These kids simply adore sea life ^_^. And especially sharks! I'd better make up some shark stories.....

For all you peeps who read my post yesterday. Today I had internship again; this time there would be a different teacher, and not that ***** mentor. I had to give words they had to form (they are learning how to write, read etc) and learn them a song.
Her comments about it (both things):
- It went great!
- You connected the words in a story; very intresting.
- Advise: They have been busy with the song very long; maybe an other song just to fresh them up again?
- Advise: You can be stricter ^_^ (I have trouble with that)
Great moments from today:
- Chibi K: 'Miss Kitt; if I have trouble reading, will you help me then? And why don't you sit down next to me? I would like that' (adorable little boy ^_^. He sometimes acts like he's 12 instead of 7)
- Chibi D (boy, school's out, so all kids have to go home. He had to wait for his mother): 'Miss Kitt, I really have to go to the bathroom, can I PLEAAAASE go?' (My reply: 'Of course you can! Would have been a silly thing if it wasn't allowed, right?')
And that was it. I like the other teacher more like that **** mentor. My counselor tries to call her tomorrow and she agreed on me meeting her. I shouldn't try to understand what my mentor said according to her, I should see it as a statement and nothing more.
Can I trade mentors?

I never, ever wished someone would get hurt. But, my new mentor from my internship... I just hope she breaks her leg or something like that. And that's already something bad if you know me. I taught myself how not to swear and not to hate someone. I simply can't wish something bad to someone... but today....

In case you didn't know already, I'm studying to become an elementary school teacher.

Today I had my 3rd day of the internship and it was my 2nd day my mentor saw me. I would give my 1st lesson in front of her eyes today. (Math)
My feelings: Hey, it went great! For once, something Junior High kids have trouble with, these 1st graders (3rd grade here) kinda understand!!! It went quite well! (All other math lessons I have given went like hell, so hence why I'm happy)
Her feelings: I'd better quote her: 'It went aweful. I doubt if they actually learned something. You picked out the wrong attention-points. If you don't do something about yourself, it will turn out into nothing'.
In other words: she thinks I'm hopeless, after seeing me 2 days and only seen 1 lesson I gave. How on earth can she grade me on that tiny moment?!
I cried about 2 hours about this 'tiny' remark. The fact she thought the lesson failed doesn't bother me. It's the way she said it.
She now wants to talk to my on-school mentor (already!!!?) so I gave her the name of my guidance counsoler. I already mailed her as well, just to tell her a tiny bit about what happened and asking for an appointment to talk to her.
You gotta admit; if you hear this on your 3rd day after your 1st lesson, it kinda makes you depressed. Especially since I already worked on this for 2 years.

I can't wait till 2 pm. Uumie will then be online, and then I'll write the last episode of Forever Young season 1.... I'm so looking forward to it!! I'm so proud!!
Well, friday I finished up a drawing for the calendar. Now 7 pages left to draw.
Saterday I was somehow superhyper and annoying AND tired at the same time. Now I feel like hell XD. I drew a kissdoll base, and I hope to be able to scan and colour it soon.
Today I suddenly came up with new looks for Shelly Stellamare from Serenay Moon. I don't know if it will work out, but we'll just have to wait and see what comes out after I've drawn what's in my head.
Now, Must do homework! SOON! FAST! So I can do fun things quickly!

I'm very happy with the fact that my new internship is only 5 minutes walking from home. I can leave my cellphone and wallet at home, so I won't be able to forget those. And, I can get up quite late!
But eh... can someone explain me where the hell I ended up with?! No wonder I was placed on the school next door and not this school! No wonder my school could never get along with this school I'm placed for internship now. My god; it's the Brainless Acadamy!!!
And then I'm not talking about the 1st graders of my class. I'm talking about my new mentor. If she had been my teacher, I would have never made it through elementary school.
She wants me to make a scedule about what I want to do and when. So she can plan. Only logical. I agree. But then I told her that I'm supposed to take over the lessons (and class) and that my only assignments are observations (which can be made any time).
Her reply (8 TIMES over the whole freaking day; and 6 times from her collegue who is there on monday till wednesday!!!): 'You should still make a scedule; that would make things clearer'.
Eh.... I can't make 'I'm supposed to take over all lessons' much clearer NITWIT! How can I make a scedule with all that will be in it will be: I'll do matchs, writing and reading... which is pretty much all they do in the 3rd grade. Okay, maybe some crafts, biology, history and geography as well, but all they have are 7 subjects (I'm not allowed to give PE)...
I CAN'T MAKE IT MUCH CLEARER! GET SOME BRAINS! Her students are smarter than her, and they can't even write and read that great yet!
This is gonna be one hell of an internship.....

I'm very happy with the fact that my new internship is only 5 minutes walking from home. I can leave my cellphone and wallet at home, so I won't be able to forget those. And, I can get up quite late!
But eh... can someone explain me where the hell I ended up with?! No wonder I was placed on the school next door and not this door! No wonder my school could never get along with this school I'm placed for internship now. My god; it's the Brainless Acadamy!!!
And then I'm not talking about the 1st graders of my class. I'm talking about my new mentor. If she had been my teacher, I would have never made it through elementary school.
She wants me to make a scedule about what I want to do and when. So she can plan. Only logical. I agree. But then I told her that I'm supposed to take over the lessons (and class) and that my only assignments are observations (which can be made any time).
Her reply (8 TIMES over the whole freaking day!!!): 'You should still make a scedule; that would make things clearer'.
Eh.... I can't make 'I'm supposed to take over all lessons' much clearer NITWIT! How can I make a scedule with all that will be in it will be: I'll do matchs, writing and reading... which is pretty much all they do in the 3rd grade. Okay, maybe some crafts, biology, history and geography as well, but all they have are 7 subjects (I'm not allowed to give PE)...
I CAN'T MAKE IT MUCH CLEARER! GET SOME BRAINS! Her students are smarter than her, and they can't even write and read that great yet!
This is gonna be one hell of an internship.....

Odd... at home it has the same old layout (Blogger)... I think it has to do with screenresolutions.... dunno.
Tuesday, Baka-J was nice at me, untill she remembered she was pissed at me XD. However, I stayed nice, so I think the mood is cleared. Today one of my classmates bellowed through the room what I've been thinking for a long time: 'I came here to actually learn something! If you want to talk, go to the cafeteria; otherwise be quiet!'
AND, todays stupidity:
At school I realised something. I had left my bag at home. My bag with my cellphone... my wallet... and thus my public transportation card O.o That meant that I didn't pay on my way to school! BAD ME!
I could use a cellphone of my classmates and asked my dad to bring my bag. He did so all things came well ^_^.
I think I'll write thursday 2 Forever Young Episodes, and I'll try to write 2 more saterday. Which means.... the last one of season 1 will be written on sunday....... (if all goes as planned!!)
And then, in less than a year time, I wrote 75 episodes of 1 story, all by myself! I'm so PROUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And then on to season 2 =D. It shall be less shorter ^_^. We'll see how for we'll get.

Odd... at home it has the same old layout (Blogger)... I think it has to do with screenresolutions.... dunno.
Tuesday, Baka-J was nice at me, untill she remembered she was pissed at me XD. However, I stayed nice, so I think the mood is cleared. Today one of my classmates bellowed through the room what I've been thinking for a long time: 'I came here to actually learn something! If you want to talk, go to the cafeteria; otherwise be quiet!'
AND, todays stupidy:
At school I realised something. I had left my bag at home. My bag with my cellphone... my wallet... and thus my public transportation card O.o That meant that I didn't pay on my way to school! BAD ME!
I could use a cellphone of my classmates and asked my dad to bring my bag. He did so all things came well ^_^.
I think I'll write thursday 2 Forever Young Episodes, and I'll try to write 2 more saterday. Which means.... the last one of season 1 will be written on sunday....... (if all goes as planned!!)
And then, in less than a year time, I wrote 75 episodes of 1 story, all by myself! I'm so PROUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And then on to season 2 =D. It shall be less shorter ^_^. We'll see how for we'll get.

Update on Baka-J. Each time I open my mouth, she looks devastating at me. Like I care Baka-J. BWAHAHAHA! CHILDISH!!! I also sat with those new classmates of mine... can you spell brainless bimbo? Well, they can't. Honestly. Dweeps!!! Just smoking, playing unintelligent card games (would have liked it if I played with my friends, but when they play it, it's unintelligent) and talking about unintresting things. I fled from there now; my brains were dying down. Well, my half an hour of socialising is over.

Mm, Blogger is having a new layout... again!
Anyway, I pissed off Baka J. from my class. Why? Well, it's quite simple. We were having class and I was listning. Soon, most people were talking to each other again. That was already annoying, but, I had no choice but accepting it. Then, half an hour later (like always) Baka J. came into class.
And, of course, she started chattering loudly and all. Then she (and how surprised she was!!) she didn't hear something and I looked devastating at her.
Baka J. : Hey, I'm at school, I can ask things!
Me: She just explained it!!
Baka J. : But I didn't hear it.
Me: Why am I not surprised?
She was so pissed off after that. In the following class, there were 2 chairs left. One next to her, and another further away. I sat down next to her (people never want to sit next to me =S What's wrong with me?! Are they jealous of my drawing skills or something like that?!) and after 2 minutes, she suddenly stood up and walked away to sit somewhere else.
And then she calls ME childish!! Sure Baka J. You may be 2 times my size, but at least I move on!!
Anyway, then the teacher started talking about scanning. Those who already knew how to scan could leave. So, I left. Duh. Kitty Ocean and not knowing how to scan.......

Anyway, I have a place for internship. I just called my mom. I told her she should bring me each day with the car to that place. Because it's so far away.
It's my old school =D. It's 5 minutes by feet away XD. Okay, it's actually only the building, but I went there to elementary school. It's gonna be weird... I just hope nothing went wrong this time, otherwise I won't have a place to stay XD. This is so awesome; I hope I'll like it there!
Anyway, my mom laughed about it. She thinks it's cool too. Don't worry, she doesn't have to pick me up by car ^_^. I'll walk. Ah.... the memories... I'll probably have to be in a class I was in as a kid as well!!!

What more? Well, I had 2 dreams last night. They were quite disturbing and odd. I actually don't recall them well any more =S. But, it had to do with running away and magical powers... I think.

My neighbours (well, the ones who live behind my house) are a bunch of jerks. Yesterday, they had some sort of party and they played a LOT of LOUD music. It so frustrated me that I couldn't draw at all =(.
And I had an aweful dream last night. Please, don't let it be true. Uumie, come quickly online!!!

Made the WITCH drawing: http://www.deviantart.com/view/3022731. I like how it turned out!!!
Well, I made an arrangement with my parents. If they do something about my wasp problem and I won't get any wasps on my room next year, I'll treat them on dinner. But if I will find them.... (gotta find something to ask back). Yup, yesterday once again a wasp. And I killed one of my plants T_T. Poor little catcus. I drowned him =(.
I wonder when my parents will come home.................

My mood is so baaaaaaaaaad. And why? Well, once again I was called out of my bed:
Dumb Twit: Hello, is Mrs. Ocean there?
Me: Which one?
Dumb Twit: Mrs. J. Ocean
Me: That's my FATHER (dammit! for once, learn that!!)
Dumb Twit: Oh, is your mother of father at home?
Me: NO (leave me alone!)
Dumb Twit: (she didn't notice how cranky I was sounding) Okay! *chirpy* I'll call back later than!
I don't often throw the phone on the hook. Anyway, I'm cranky. Very cranky. And then if you get mails with just a tiny discussion, you get even more cranky. And then, if you read a comment on your art, that you miscalculated something, the mood simply drops. Especially if that miscalculation was already pointed out days ago.
Yesterday I talked to someone from 'The Eastern Coast' (I believe that must be the USA; can't miss) and she thought I was being sarcastic and mean, while I was not. She was an awesome artist and she seriously thought I was being mean to her! But, she later understood I was not and now she thinks I'm blunt, but nice.
What more? Well, my mom wrote me down a note about what I should prepare for swimming lessons tomorrow night, but I'm kinda confused about that so I gotta ask that first. Great. And I still gotta prepare stuff for saterday.
I don't wanna go. There, that's it. I hate it there. But I MUST go, otherwise I get into trouble.
I'm in a bad, bad mood. If you want to survive me, I suggest cheering me up >=(.

Okay, went to school for 50 minutes to hear.... well, something. It was intresting though. But our assignment: 'Come up with 2 subjects that intrest you, and that hasn't been enough talked about in year 1 & 2'. Okay.... my memory goes till this morning.....HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHAT WAS INTRESTING IN THE LAST 2 YEARS!!!? This is gonna be a pain.....
And, I still don't have a place for internship. Goody...
And I wanna draw something for our WITCH magazine. Gonna do that tomorrow. Finished the layout pics for the fall layout today (not too happy about them though...)

Great. I STILL don't know if I'll have a place for internship. First they were suppossed to tell us last friday, then it became monday, and now it's tuesday!! Well, at least I didn't get the 'you have too little points; you're at the bottom of the list' letter. A friend of mine got that; while she does have enough points!
And check out The Realm of the CrystalStars. OMFG! Can people really be this low?! They took her art (Crystalfyre's), deleted her signature, and claimed it to be their own! HOW FREAKING LOW!
That is one of the worst things that can happen to an artist. She was one of my teachers! Okay, she didn't know it, but I learned a lot from looking at her art. She even encouraged people to trace her art if that would help them improve, and this is how she gets repaid??! *kicks evil people*
If I ever find one of those thieves, I'll grab their heads and push it in a pile of dogs*** (ain't I aweful?! I can't even swear!). This is so low.
Lucky for me I'm not as good as she is. XD. Sure, she's into furries now, and I'm not, but she's still one hell of an artist!
*growls*
Now some good news. I have a pretty good feeling I may be able to finish Forever Young season 1 this year! May I add a 'Whoohoo!'? I'm so proud; I already wrote over 60 chapters by myself! Only problem is, that they sometimes get pretty long, and then I split them in 2 XD. Half of the time I have trouble filling 3 pages, and the other half of the time I'm at 6 pages XD. I try to keep an average of 3 pages for each chapter.
But somehow, I can't seem the character designs to work out =S. So far I only have looks for Naraku, Sushi, Grasshopper, Irina, Clover... and maybe Yume and Suta as well. But the others... especially the boys.... HELP! Oh yeah, I already have looks for Mah-Lin. XD How could I forget her! She's gonna kick my butt now. *gets kicked*
SORRY!!!!! *hides*

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*burps* That was about it kinda. Yeah... My life is boring.

Great. I dragged all my friends into that guestbook thingie. I'm not angry because people tell me the story I worked years on sucked; hell, I don't even care. What I hate is that I dragged my friends along in this stupid childish fight.
Flamers, I finished elementary school. I get tha message after 1 entry. No need to post 5 posts with the only message: 'You all suck'. You think I care? Heck, I don't. Not any more.
I'm not writing Serenay Moon for the peeps who hate the story. I'm writing it for those who DO like it! If you don't like the story, I don't care. Don't waste my time putting meaningless entries.
So, from now on, I shall delete meaningless entries.Everybody is entitled to their own opinion, but I don't accept childishness in my guestbook. Grow up flamers. Stop spamming my site just because you don't have a life.
And heck, if you read this... I don't care. If you go yell at me at the guestbook, I'll simply delete your entry. Not because I don't accept your opinion, but because you are not worth my time. If you mail me, I won't even reply. Because you are not worth my time.

I could rant hours more about this, but what would be the use? I think you all got the message now, so why waste more breath about it ^_^? Sure, I do want to rant more, but I don't want to bore you to death.

In the night from friday on saterday I had a weird dream... the weirdest thing? Well, it actually made sense! Sure, it was half a crossover between Elfquest and DragonBall GT, but the DragonBall GT part looked like a real episode!
In the Netherlands, they just started the part where Gohan, Goten and Vegeta (spelling?) got possessed by 'Baby' (huh???). And they are waiting for Goku. Well, my dream kinda was about that. Goku was now possessed as well, and Pan and Trunks were forced to fight him.
But I thought Bula was called Bra? Or did I hear that wrong? I'm talking about Vegeta's daughter ^_^.
Saterday I gave a swimminglesson and got reviewed. Well, the teacher thought I did way too little. EXCUSE ME?! They worked non stop! Poor kids! I never let them work this hard! So, I kinda disagree with his review ^_^.
Then I had that stupid swimming course, and, brace yourself... I... had... fun. Not that we did anything usefull...... But I did have fun! It turns out that L-chan reads my blog *waves at L-chan*. I believe her internet name is Acrocat? Gotta look that back. For now I'll call her L-chan ^_^.
That evening I celebrated my mom's b-day with my dad. We kinda had fun, but were way too tired XD.
I remember having a dream featuring me (for a change =P) being chased by people and a dinosaur who could talk? Huh? That didn't make sense.....
And when I woke up I didn't want my dad to know I was already awake so I dove back into bed, when suddenly I heard something heavy falling down the stairs. Usually it's followed by swearing, but this time not. So, I jumped out of bed and fear grabbed my heart when I saw my father's leg.
I was so afraid! But, all he had was a cut in his hand *is very releaved*. And, luckily, he fell from the last stair XD.
I was so happy he was all right. It could have been way worse!!!

Nowbody ever draws anything for me!!! *wails and ignores the pile of artwork people had done for her behind her*.
Okay, my 2nd day off. Man I'm tired. I think I shall go to bed early. Tomorrow I have that stupid course again. Yeah, I hate that.
I wrote FY 56 + 57 yesterday, and so far people liked it ^_^. I'm just too lazy and busy to make a decent website for it. Not to mention I hardly have any art.
Oh yes, and I thought I was finished with that stupid homework for that stupid course, but all of a sudden it's unclear which assignments you had to do... mwech. No fair.
Sunday I'll try typing FY again. Today, if I have time, I'll scan some stuff I got from Stevo ^_^.

Yesterday I had a lot of class. And it was really boring. Only funny thing was when I had to write a poem about something I really disliked eating. It became 'Ode to the Brussel Sprouts'. After reading it to the others, they all said they would look different to Brussel Sprouts now =P. It was Dutch, but maybe I'll translate it once ^_^.
After that I had time off and checked my e-mail. I helped first graders with their pc =D. Then I went to the cafetaria and sat with my classmates and 3 new classmates.... my god. Either they are drunk 24/7, or on drugs 24/7! And only talking about 1 thing!!
They demanded where I had been, what I had done and what not more! I thought: 'Excuse me? Since when do I have to tell people where I spend my hour off???'. They were so nosy! I don't like them. *folds arms*
In the Serenay Moon Guestbook, 2 people have complained that we made a bad copy from Sailor Moon =(. I stayed nice, but it did make me sad. It hurt me, but it's only foolish to think everybody loves Serenay Moon. Not everybody can like it. But, the way they said it.... 'Try something original for a chance...'
And I worked 2.5 years on it!
So, I was a bit down when I came home (even though it was Cat's and my Mom's b-day), and then noticed something in the corner.
Wait a minute... could it be... no... this package could never be for me! BUT IT WAS! IT WAS FOR ME! Stevo send me übercute things! A LOT OF ÜBERCUTE THINGS! *hugs the package* It sure brightened my day up ^_^.
Some of the art I won't scan- it's something I want to keep for me alone then ^_^. BWAHAHAHA! And I got a family picture! I'm gonna look for a frame ^_^. Me and my little daughter and her father ^_^ *is still adored by it* But you peeps won't see that picture! That one is MINE!!
You can see the picture of my little girl on her prom ^_^.
Anyway, I'm very happy with it *hugs Stevo*. Now to stuff myself with the candy he bought ^_^.
Today I planned another episode of FY, as well as finishing that stupid summer course's assignments. I have a few left......

I'm in deep shit.... I'm so in deep trouble... well, it was nice knowing you guys. My dad's gonna kill me as soon as he finds out I forgot to give something to my mom... again...... Uh-oh....
Finished my secret thingie today, but it will arrive late. Just know that. Oh well, maybe it will surprise *grabs mouth* MUST NOT TALK.
I also made an über-hyper picture today. Will scan soon ^_^.
I also went shopping this morning. To find those missing books I'm looking for. The answer: not for sale... ever... any more.
Then I went to school and saw another shop... why didn't I look there sooner? The book I bought for almost 30 euros was so much cheaper there!!!! But... good thing is... I ALSO FOUND THE OTHER BOOKS I WAS LOOKING FOR!!! Yay me! I got all the books I wanted right now!!
Okay, maybe 1 not... Gotta keep on looking for that one then.
Then had school- a complete waste of time... again. After that I went to a Garden-shop (2 actually), and bought lots of things. Yup.
And when I came home, I remembered the thingie I forgot... G'bye people.... was nice knowing you.... *hides*

And this was my day today.... should have stayed in bed...
1st period/ class: I think it was intresting, but couldn't hear much because of the yapping ditzes behind me.
2nd period/ class: Okay, this was boring AND confusing, but I managed to find a group. Sjeez, only 1 period had passed and already people had formed groups to work together....
3rd period/ class till 5th period/class: No class. Answered a LOT of mail. Couldn't do much more. Shops weren't open yet =S.
6th period/class: Okay... I waited 3 hours to hear: Answer these 5 questions????! AAAAARGH!!!
7th and 8th period/ class were cancelled, so I went shopping in my city. I tripped over my mom in the mall =D. We went shopping together some more, bought some books blablabla.
Went home, started drawing again on a picture which I cannot tell anything about except that I have to have it finished very soon XD. And I'm still not done. My parents and next-door-neighbour love it so far though....
Now, 25 minutes left to post 6 pictures at Deviant Art... I have a feeling I won't be able to post much art this year of school XD.
Mwech- people will understand that. And if not... their problem =P

I have a strange loyalty towards my friends... if they are sad, I simply can't be happy. And when they cry, I can't help but cry along. Yesterday I saw Uumie again; I so wished I had a better reason to see her again. We talked a lot, and we even smiled =D. I know the following days are going to be hard for her, but I shall be there for her.
Unlike some people. *growls*. I know someone who ONLY talkes about HERSELF and how we should all have pity with HER! MY GOD GIRL! It makes me so furious! My best friend Uumie is in great pain and you talk about how busy you are at school???? I don't care if she reads it; but she should stop talking about herself!
Sure, we all have those moments that we want to talk about ourselves; heck, this whole blog is about me, but it doesn't harm you to listen to others once in a while!

I'm still trying to comprehent it. Tomorrow I'm going to see Uumie again... just wished I had a better reason to go.
I can't type much... just have no idea what to say. My new school scedule looks like a swiss cheese and I know half of my new classmates. My classmentor is an ass.
I can't believe it happened. At all. Yesterday I just had to call my sister; I just wanted to hear her voice. I burst out into tears and told her what happened. Usually she goes all: 'And the reason I should care is...?', but even she was shocked.

I'm no late with my 'My day with Uumie'-report XD. Late with EVERYTHING. It's the last day of my vacation, and I didn't do much of what I planned this vacation. I only have 4 pages from the calendar finished, I need to draw 2 layout pics for Serenay Moon's Autumn layout, an ID picture fro Deviantart...ARGH! I so hope I have a few days off in my scedule XD I also need to write FY again- I haven't written that much.....
Anyway, 2 days I met Uumie and it was great. Yes. Expect the train ride. 2 hours in the train to pick her up, 2 hours to get back, gave her presents, showed her the shops from Utrecht, showed her the Dom and then we went to my house. I won a cat. Nya! Hehe ^_^
Well, we left my home, went back to Utrecht, bought Uumie an ice cream *snickers and rolls on the floor* and went into the train. We barely fit in to it XD.
At a station, nobody thought about opening the 2nd door. Not even after I gave some 'oops- I'm talking to loud' -hints. So, the next thing I said to Uumie: 'Mèèè!' Bunch of sheeps! They don't think at all!!
I put Uumie on the train again, and then hopped into mine. I saw a coupé with only 1 woman and she looked nice and since I don't want to be alone, I asked her if it was okay that I joined.
It turns out that woman was english! We talked quite a lot and I tripped a few times over my tongue XD. The woman said that most English people are jealous because we Dutch people know at least 2 till 4 languages! Woohoo!
Then a vietnamese/chinese family joined and after the english woman left, I started talking with their kid. He knew way more dutch than his parents ^_^. He gave me a piece of candy!
Then, when I left, I saw some girls who had introduction to University. They said they had a rough day; all that information! I said that those days you just have to act like a spongue: just suck up all the information! And in the following years... you can just let it drip out!
And then I came home. Cool huh?

Monday is more than half passed... and I actually didn't do much XD.
Can someone tell me why I all of a sudden have dreams about me being a spy, or people hunting me down? For the past week, that has been the main theme. Oh yes, and me having magical powers at the same time. It so confuses me.
We are now 48h's weird mails free!! Hurray!!
Gosh... I REALLY have nothing to tell people! Man, my last week of freedom and it's so BORING! I so need to get a life. Anyone suggestions where I can buy one?

If it isn't the neighbour's dog, it's my own freaking dog that wakes me up! She so knows she isn't alowed to get upstairs, and yet, she still does it, and she even licked me this time!! Awe!! I do NOT like that!!
I'm into my weddings-mood again. I have a feeling that (officially I don't know it yet) my niece is getting married. In my family, there are 4 people in my generation: My niece, my nephew, my sister and me. The oldest one is now getting married.... When will it be my turn =S? I'm the only freaking single in my family XD. Okay, my grandmother is now single as well, but that doesn't count.
Oh, and in the name of Mister Holy Person in the Sky; I didn't get ANY strange mails for more than 24h's!!! WOOHOO! *does a silly dance*
And... made 3 drawings today. 2 Wedding related (and Serenay Moon related =P) and 1 thingie I dedicate to Demi, since he told me how to do that.
I want thursday to come fast. And then that time stops, so I won't have to go to school on friday XD. Bwech!

I wonder why some of my friends suddenly became so violent... they act like death is a game they can play with... all that talking about death. To me it feels like they talk about themselves dying, and not their characters. But, I'm the only one in the group who feels that way. I can't keep on troubling all with my troubles.
But just... I've been to so many funurals... more than 20 people in my family and neighbourhood died. Even a friend of mine died. The people who take death so lightly, don't know how it feels to have your heart ripped out in pain.
I never wish this feeling to anyone. This feeling... I can't describe it otherwise than having my heart ripped out, or stabbed right in the chest.
No, I can never think lightly over death. Even when I write about death, I try to make it honourable.
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Off topic: I wanted to have a dream related to Pirates of the Carribian. One of my friends said that I shouldn't do that awake, but asleep. Then I said that my dreams never made sense and I never dream about what I want to dream about. But, I DID dream kinda about the Pirates of the Carribian... but only 2 people from that movie were in it... WHY DID IT HAD TO BE THE WOODEN-EYED GUY AND HIS SIDEKICK?!?!
And, again, the dream made no sense at all. Don't ask me to tell about it, because I have no clue how describe it....

*dresses Courage up like a Pirate* Oh hi everybody!! Today I met Sol Nuada in tha flesh and we went together to Pirates of the Carrbian.... I'm still so excited about it! I can't remember the last time I saw a movie and enjoyed it this much! Really, I recommend it to all of you!! Great story, Super Special Effects and... ÜberCool action!!
Not to mention Jack Sparrow. Cunning, smart and great swordsman. He's so cool! Will Turner was cool as well; good looking (hey, I'm a GIRL! So sue me!), sweet loyal guy (almost got him killed....) and also a great swordsman.
And that Elizabeth girl... she was okay ^_^. I think I would survive a day with her locked up in 1 room. Her father was funny ^_^ *grins when she remembers the end*.
But, enough about the movie! Great movie- I'm so gonna buy it.
Today, I met Sol Nuada. Really nice guy ^_^. Great listener... but that can have 2 reasons:
1) He isn't talkative
2) He couldn't get a word between my rattling
I think it's reason 2 ^_^. How we met was quite funny as well. I was way early in the library where we met, and I decided to read a book. And, since we both like Elfquest, I decided to pick an Elfquest book.
He came in, looked around, and dug into the Elfquest part XD. We both must have thought alike. Well, he turned around, and I showed my book, and I guess that was when we were sure... though I think he had a dash of help by having my picture.
We talked, talked- oh correction: I talked, talked and we got the tickets, I talked, and talked, and we went into the cinema. Jeepers... it was EMPTY!! And we had the best seats! NYA!
Great place Sol Nuada =D.
So, I really had a great day ^_^. Now, can't wait till thursday!!!!
Oh, and when Sol left, I decided to go to the Bathroom one more time. There was a mom with 3 teenager girls. The mom was tired of waiting, and there was no one in the men's room, so she went there. The teenager girls were so embarrassed and I saw the mother was feeling awkward for doing that.
So, I gathered my courage and went to the men's room as well ^_^. Woohoo! Yay me! I did something bad!! I did something illegal! But you know, I don't see that as a rule... more as a guideline... =P

Dissappointments, choas, nervousity- It's coming all at me at the same time XD. 2 appointments, 2 different days, 1 today, 1 (as known so far) next thursday. But boy... I think I shouldn't have called episode 70 Castle Chaos... because I'm feeling so chaotic right now XD.
UUMIE IS HOME! WAI WAI WAI WAI! *does happy dances*. And, as everything goes as planned now, we'll meet next thursday again!! Can't wait! *does a prayer* Please High One(s), don't say no this time!!! *bows*.
Argh! Nervousity taking OVER!!! I'm going to the movies with Sol Nuada. I so hope I'll recognise him and that we can stand each other! It's kinda like a blind date, but without the date then. Sort of: Blind Appointment.
ARGH! *runs circles in panic*

I'm gonna point at my sister and laugh really hard. Yeah. That's what I'm gonna do. Anyway, I saw my old english teacher today. Boy, he still looks like his mind is in another world.
Nothing much to tell. Haven't heard from Uumie yet... I'm getting worried. I bet nothing is wrong, but I can't help but worry a bit... maybe I should look up her phone number and call her....
Maybe I'll do that tonight... it's not like I have something better to do...

Great. Just great. MSN forced me to download a new version, and I did. Problem is, I now can't get online any more without putting my firewall down! And I don't like doing that!
So, I thought, okay, then I'll quit with MSN. And download OAL. Great. That programme too asks me to put down my firewall!! To be short: At this moment I'm very unreachable for MSN and AOL-friends.
Today I haven't encountered any wasps. Yay me.
And I forgot one tiny thing... Today the swimming lessons start as well. To be short: I'm at the side of the pool from 6.15 pm till 7.45. I'll try to be online at 9 pm.
In case anyone needs me.

Things that happened today:
- While moving files today, a wasp crawled over my foot. It was the 2nd in 2 days.
- I went shopping with mom. Nothing important happened.
- Typed Serenay Moon episode 70. I think it came out nicely; nothing special
- When I just came into my room again, I found another wasp walking over my window. After throwing that bug out, I said to my dad: 'It's time you do something about it, otherwise I'll take mom and your room and one of YOU can sleep in MY room!'. I don't think it scared them...
- When I went to outlook, I suddenly got 28 mails of people I don't know, who almost all have the same subject title and all have attachements. I deleted them all; about 10 minutes I got 7 more. What is going on? Nobody, but my closest friends, know my home adress!! I just received 2 more mails. They tend to appear around the 10 minutes... Somebody knows what's going on???
And how stupid do they think I am- opening a file from a person I don't know at all?!?!

So, I have a new page :) http://kittyocean.deviantart.com/. An art page. It's free and has unlimited space. I think I may use it often....
Finished the calendar picture (FINALLY), and did about 85% of the stupid insane questions of the summer course... now the other few are still left. Darn.
I slept wonderful last night, but I'm still tired XD.
I went shopping with mommy today. Bought 3 books from Paul van Loon, CD cases, gel pens for special letters and a bear with a (probably plastic) birthstone ^_^.
I keep on forgetting what I wanted to say XD. Probably nothing important. Tomorrow I'll try and type Serenay Moon episode 70 (yuppers!! But I completely forgot to think about it, so I had no plot in mind XD- I'll sleep a night about this plot, and type tomorrow), and maybe even another Forever Young story. But I also need to finish 80% of the other stupid insane useless asignments from that stupid summer course...
I wonder when my school books will get delivered... and I wonder why I haven't had any mail from Het Net yet, telling me there has been no activity at my clubs for 2 weeks.... I'll may check it out tomorrow.
So, my tomorrow to do list:
- Serenay Moon 70
- Stupid Assignments part 1
Maybe:
- Forever Young 56
Yay me....

I'll need 3 days to finish this calendar picture I'm working on. Not because it is big, or has a lot of detail... heck, I'm not even working hard on it yet! I think I only worked about 5 hours on it now! I just lost the love of drawing and colouring at this moment.....
And I had ANOTHER wasp on my room. Last year I had dozens; about 2 weeks ago I found the body of a wasp that just had passed away, and now I had to throw one out again. Where do these come from?!?!
That stupid dog from the neighbours robbed me from my sleep again! I'm beginning to have a very bad mood because of that monster!! At moments like this, I love my dogs even more.
And last night I watched a german crimi movie. I think Germany has a lot of great crimis, but this one... it was okay. But SLOW. The tv guide said it was a great movie; my parents loved it as well... I just thought everything went way too slow XD.
Maybe next week I shall open a Deviant Gallery. Tiamat says I should do that. I always wanted my own art gallery, but I'm too lazy to keep it up to date... and she says it will bring peeps to Serenay Moon.
Well... EVERYTHING for Serenay Moon ^_^.
And I hate it if I know something that I can't tell 1 person because it concerns him/her. I'm so happy I can tell Uumie it. I hope she can still come over. Just 3 more days and she'll come home!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!

I'm plundering a video site again XD. I have more than the half of what I want already downloaded. Yay me!
I think I know why I lost interest for drawing at this moment. I'm too good.... no kidding. About everything I have in my head works. I can draw almost anything I wish... I simply have no challenge any more...
Other cause may be the lack of sleep XD.
Oh, and there is a huge blackout in New York. Why on earth did people think it was a terrorist attack? It's just a blackout! Doesn't that ever happen there or so? We have that at least once a year in the Netherlands.
Not that our system sucks or so, but the good point is that we don't worry about blackouts that much....
It must be because New York is a big city... Oh, and I liked the mayor or New York! I thought he was nice!!!

I found a site with A LOT OF new video clips to download.... I just wonder why I sometimes can't download........ weird. This shall take some time XD.
Mom just called; they are on their way to the netherlands!!
That's about it. My sister is a pain. Yeah...

Yesterday I downloaded Fandubbed SailorStar VideoClips. I must admit, they weren't that bad all of the time. I believe it was from www.negavision.com or so. I especially got touched by the clip where Usagi cried and transformed into Eternal Sailor Moon. And that Rei jumped after her. Such great casting... though Artemis was a bit loud XD. Hotaru had a nice voice as well.
And I just noticed I hadn't downloaded all the videoclips at the Sailor Senshi page. If it goed on like this, I will need to put it on 3 CDs for Uumie!!!
Well, Stevo and Demi finally managed to get back online! How I missed them! *grabs them and doesn't let go any more* And yesterday I got a postal card from Uumie! I wrote her a welcome home letter today. You know, a mail with a stamp and all.
I did drew today and I will outline ink it tomorrow. I'm not that happy with it... I think I lost intrest in drawing and writing. Oh, that has happened before. ^_^. Nothing to worry; it'll return!
What more? I prepared dinner and it looked like something a train ran over with. But, appearantly it tasted okay ^_^.
Today was a lot colder than the days before. I liked it!!! And I managed to sleep till 9!! Yay me!!
I miss mom and dad. They will return tomorrow or saterday. Musn't forget to update!! Better make a note for me.......

Well, I went to the police. I think they are making a bigger case out of it than I do. Anyway, went there (including the dog- why did it had to bark through the entire station?!) and we officially put a statement on paper.
The guy then asked if I wanted a copy, and I said yes. First of all, because I don't know if it will come handy once. Second, because I actually thought it would be cool to have one.
And, if my parents want to know what happened, they can read it XD. I'm actually kinda tired of telling the whole story... again! I'm still having paradox feelings though. And I think those feelings will stay for a while; that is only normal I think.
I didn't go there for me. I actually did it for the girl whom I hope shall never exist. Because, what IF he manages to get his hands on another girl? Then it's better to have 2 cases then one.
Well, tomorrow I'll try to draw again. I have 3 things I can draw: calendar, christmas card and a contest from a friend. Today I didn't do that much, but tomorrow I'll start again!
AND, I got a postcard from Uumie from France! Oh, I miss her so much!! She'll come back wednesday. I'll write her a welcome home letter ^_^.

My feelings are in great paradox. I want to tell you what happened last night, and at the same time simply forget it. But, it's best that I do talk about it.
Last night I was walking in the parc, walking the dog I'm babysitting. I saw a man with a little kid and we started talking. It began about the name of the dog and it kinda ended with... well... If I was ever intrested, he would show me 'things'. You can figure out what I mean I guess.
I tried to get out as soon as possible, trying to stay polite as well, because of several reasons. He already had tapped my breast a few times. And, the main reason was that he kept on talking about sex and practically gave me a lecture on how, when, what etc!
When I finally managed to get out, he touched my lips with his fingers. I can still feel it. I walked home as fast as possible, with a big circle of course. At home, I called the police, crying.
Actually not knowing why, but they immidiately send 2 cops. 1 of the cops turned out to be a guy I've had swimming lessons with. They brought me to the police station (in a police car! Doesn't drive that bad...) and called a special person for me.
That woman came, about half an hour later, and we talked about what happened. She wrote down a lot, and told me she would consult a colleage. She wanted to know if it already happened before.
Today I was called again. If I wanted to press charges (is that the expression) against harrasment (spelling?). I asked if that had any use; I would never be able to give a possible ID for that guy.
They said, that if they happened to find that guy, it would be better if they had 2 cases then 1. I agree actually, and who knows what he might do to other girls! So, tomorrow I will go to the policestation again.
They are so nice to me.
A couple of years I walked in the mall and a guy kept on asking if I wanted to come home to drink coffee- he would even have cake! I drove on my bike home crying...
That night my dad took me to the police. It might have been an attempt to kidnapping... but why me?! I'm not Miss Universe Material?
And EWH!, why would I do 'the you-know-what-stuff' with a total stranger!?
Yet, my feelings are in paradox. I'm not that scared to get back to the parc, but I don't want to get back there either. I don't feel harrassed, but I do feel very dirty. I don't want to do anything, yet I want to do things. I don't want to be alone... yet I know I'm safe.
I want my parents. First time home alone, and this happens. First time I'm babysitting a dog on my own, and this happens.
I'm so confused, upset, and yet very cold at the same time. I feel nothing, yet I feel a lot.
I'm in a deep paradox. I hope I can update friday... I know all will understand, and those who don't, should get brains.
Sorry to all. I'm just so confused.