Let me type this before I'll even go online... Yes, I'm typing this offline. I've been gone for a day. Usually I get about 40 mails a day (without spam). I've not been online for almost 2 days.... if you get what I mean...
Yesterday was the big day. The VERY big day. Completely hyper I dragged my sister and her boyfriend towards the station. It surprised me our first fight appeared there- about how to get the tickets. I got my way- which resulted into buying the tickets myself. ^_^. She then dragged me to a cafe where she ordered coffee for herself. "You want something too? A Coke, Fanta, nothing really? No warm Chocolate-Milk?" I shook my head, adding that I was surprised that she didn't knew I don't drink chocolatemilk.
Since I was about... 2 days old or so? I've NEVER drank chocolatemilk before- I don't like the taste from it. But, it's not that surprising she forgot that. You would think my dad would know my name after 20 years... ANYWAY, this reminds me I still have to type something useless for school. Gotta find an hour or so. But, back to the story. My sister gave me some fruit shake instead and WOW! So much sugar! I was already hyper, but now I became bouncy as well!
We waited for the train and it arrived way too late. For the first time I was pissed at our National Raillines; Uumie was waiting for me! And I couldn't call her letting her know I came later! So, about 20-25 minutes later we left the station... to find out halfway:
"Ladies and Gentlemen, because we are already late, we have decided this train will NOT go to Maastricht. People who need to go to Maastricht are advised to take an other train in Sittard." This mend we would arrive even later! We were already 30 minutes late- now we would arrive almost an hour later! I was so scared. I was so scared Uumie would think I didn't show up.
My sister tried to cheer me up, saying that if Uumie left, we would go shopping in Maastricht ourselves, but it didn't work. I started to cry (yes Uumie, I cried!!) I was so looking forward to this day, and now that stupid NS would ruin it all!
We reached Maastricht about 40 minutes after we decided to meet and when we reached the hallway.... I immediatelly recognised Uumie! I was so afraid that she wouldn't be there, or that I wouldn't recognise her, but I yelled: "Uumie!" And she looked up. It had to be her! I'm very surprised she never said if she ever thought I wouldn't show up. All she said was that that track always has troubles. She had so much faith in me showing up ^_^. I didn't doubt she would show up, I just doubted if she would still be there after 40 minutes.
But she was and I got 2 bags of candy *crunch, crunch- tasty!* I told her I would give her my gift on a place we could sit down so we left to find the Hema- a big store where you can also eat. Maastricht has a bridge that looks like a small version of the Karelsbrug (???) in Prague. Well, looking like it... not at all, but it did remind me of it! Oh, I forgot to tell, Uumie brought a friend along- I'll call her M-chan for now. Great nice girl! And tall =D.
Anyway, we reached the Hema, sat down and I gave my 4 gifts. First the eraser-pen I bought for her. I promised that. After that I gave her something I found about a week ago- the very first drawings I made for Uumie.
It dated back from Sailor Demeter, when I made some KissDoll Edits from Sailor Orion's Portraite Shop. I made some sketches so I could do that offline (must have been the pre-cabel days ^_^). It's almost 2 years old!! I just looked it up. The first Demeter Edit has been made on wednesday 23 may 2001... so we met about a few weeks before that! .... Gosh....
Then I gave the music sheets from Suteki Da Ne- which I promised as well. I found it online and it's her fav. song. I printed it at school because they have better quality and... =P... It was still free prints back then!!!
But then my big gift... I'll not tell it. Uumie can ^_^. But I think for the first time my horoscope came true: 'Today you'll get recognition for your hard work'. I don't think she expected this! She didn't say a word (hopefully that's a positive sign ^_~).
After that we got some dinner. We thought they gave Uumie the wrong meal but nor Uumie nor someone else complained so why worry ^_^.
We left, looking for a WITCH, but we ended up with something else before we hid from the heat in the V&D. I bought 2 How To Draw Manga books. Okay, one was Japanese Animation drawing. Like I didn't have enough books already =D. We drank in the V&D and then went out for our quest again. We finally found it, but left the mall quickly because of some idiot smoking. I just was getting better from my cold and all that smoke... the result is that my voice is half gone. Was 3/4th gone this morning. Has been a while since I sounded this... soft!
M-chan suggested to go and look for the parc and we all agreed. But by the time we actually found it my sister called and asked if we would have dinner together. We agreed and went back (mm, way back was a lot shorter =D) but my sister sure knew how to pick restaurants... V&D restaurant... it's so big but they have so little! And she wasn't happy with the fact we chose a non smokers corner! Hehe! *laughs- as hard as she can at this moment anyway*
We headed back to the station and I asked if M-chan and Uumie would like to come visit me in the summer and then stay as well. They liked that idea and so do I! (Mom on the other hand wasn't so happy I said that; should've asked first (she's right). But I'll persuade her. If I can persuade her into letting people (notice the plural form!) from America stay, people from the Netherlands shouldn't be much of a problem).
Uumie took some pics and my sister took a picture of the 3 of us. I had a weird feeling all of a sudden, but I think I'll soon know if that feeling was right or not..........
Uumie and M-chan went along to the next station where we said goodbye. It was so much fun but man I was tired!!! And when we went back: "The train to Utrecht has a delay of 10 minutes.". ... Figures.
In the tram from Utrecht to my home we saw some people who lived on the streets. Sad sight, I know, but they made a mess! My sister mumbled something about what a mess they made and suddenly some man started talking to us. Yes, sad sight indeed! Years ago all those people got locked up, had a meal, clothes and a job as well. No, he wasn't drunk or psycho (that was what he said. I disagree. He was psycho!) but he went on and on that we should wake up and see the trouble in society. The Government, those were the true crimenals!!!
We were so happy when the tram left (he shut up! yay! next time my sister is gonna pick the spot!!) and we reached home. I told a bit about yesterday to my parents and went to bed.
Worked this morning. Femia whined about me but Aline said that I couldn't know it so she shouldn't overreact. WOW! Aline took MY side?! Last week she took Femia's side!! And I said something back to Karin, that whiney woman! She said: "Kitt, PULL the cart in!" On her very special 'you are so beneath me'-tone. And I said back: "Relax Karin, I'm BUSY with that! I just can't make the turn yet because I don't have the space for it." Beware Karin... Kitty got a mouth! I won't let her put me down any more!
When I came home I started coloring for school. Needed to design a book for little kids- well the cover anyway. Uumie saw it. It's now colored. My teacher wanted me to color the back as well, but I don't want to. So, I'll ask him monday which color to let him think I need him *evil grins*. Just too lazy to think myself. Coloring that damn piece took me at least 4 hours. And I don't think it's one of my best pieces at all. And I need a pencil sharpener. A good one.
All that is left is that I have to create a font for that book and print that and then trace it. Then the cover is done.
All that is left for this weekend is 2 lesson preporations and finishing the subject 'World of the Small Child'. I'm almost done! I probably can type that crappy not relevant at all piece sunday as well. Woopie. Sunday is gonna be boring.
Just 3 more weeks.... just 3 more weeks...
PS. UUMIE RULES! M-CHAN RULES! THANKS FOR THE GREAT DAY!

AH! Sweet today! Mm, should I mention the blackboard thingie in my dayreports? Mm, I'd better should. Though I still remember each blackboard drawing I ever made, might be nice to mention in my day reports. Lemme find that day *goes off*
*is back* There, here I am. Missed me? I went to my internship today- just 4 more days left. Wai! Anyway, we also went to a tree that was said to be crawling with caterpillars. My vision: finding caterpillars easy on that tree, but you still have to look.
The actual tree.
Imagine a tree, with some sort of web covering it completely, with on each inch at leat 6 caterpillars, with nets and bags from webs hanging from them with caterpillars crawling inside!! Estimation: about 600 caterpillars on 1 tree.
And they fell from the sky. I was AMAZED! I've never seen THIS MUCH!
Luckily my only fear was that a caterpillar would fall in my open mouth ^_^. I don't fear them at all!! And if I would find a caterpillar tomorrow in my bed I wouldn't be surprised ^_^.
And Jasper made a book especially for me! SO CUTE!
What more? I just remembered it... I have kids ^_^. And the most present kid is Courage ^_^. And I'm the mom..... but guess who daddy is^? ^_^. I wonder how he would react...... I created her, but he gave her personality!! *feels evil and waves at 'daddy' with Courage*
Courage: Good luck with graduation daddy!!!
WACK! Shouldn't forget to update on thursday... 2 fan art pieces. And art from me ^_^

Many people have asked me if I have a new bloglayout..... I don't. Just somehow, the pics and all don't show up any more =S. If it doesn't get fixed in the next week- I might take a new bloglayout. But, then again, I don't have much time. Just 3 more weeks and the year is over!!!!
So, you all have to live 3 more weeks with these broken things ^_^. Sorry.
If it makes you feel better- I also have the feeling I won't be able to type for FY for the following 3 weeks as well. >_<. Don't worry, I don't like it either. But school is more important at the moment. The year is ALMOST over!!!
What more? Oh yeah, I cleaned my room partly today again. My sister took one look: 'So, when will the rest be done?' Typically her! Always looking at what still needs to be done instead of what has been done!! I cleaned 3!!!!!! shelves today!! I did so much!! (never knew I had this many books =S) But, she never sees it. Not to mention she tells me how to clean my room AND she gave back some gifts I bought for her once. No, that really motivates to buy her new gifts!!!
It's still not certain if she'll buy the house or not. I hope so. I need her room =P. Hopefully already this year!
What more? I'm still very very tired. Very.*snores*

They love me! They truely love me!
Yeah, I'm happy ^_^. Today was the last day of my internship week and I'm very proud. The goal of this internship is that I will be able to do one day alone at least. Eh... I did this whole week ALONE! Ain't I great?! And the kids...
Levi's mom told me he couldn't stop talking about me at home. Rinske says she is in love with me (she's a 5 year old girl...). All almost fight to be the one who gives me a hand. I caused a riot on elementary school ^_^. My mentor is also very proud on me and really likes me being there.
She also thinks that since I'm just an intern, I don't have to help to change the kids into new clothes if they accidentally wet their pants. Hurray! That's the most annoying part about todlers ^_^. And they cry if they can't be the closest to the door! =S. That is so weird! Jasper cried: "But I was closer to the door first!" Oi... some kids truely make a disaster out of nothing *sighs*.
The teacher from Group 5/ 3rd Grade (age 9/10) asked me if I could make a drawing on the blackboard. Theme: a portrait. She herself couldn't be in the class, so I was left alone during lunchbreak. Some kids were in the room though. I lightly first sketched the lines and all those kiddies: "What are you drawing?!" I told them they should ask their teacher that- it was a surprise. Some kids were really gazing and a girl was standing close.
So, I looked at her. "Don't move." I said and drew her hair. She went all hyper: "Look, that's my hair!" Another girl was gazing as well. "Hey, shall I draw your earring?" I asked another girl and she was happy too. I drew another girl's clothes, another girl's necklace and a boy's earring, shirt and necklace. And picked the eye color of another boy. And when the teacher came in, they all rushed at her telling what I drew from them.
She was really amazed on what I drew and loved it. Then ALL the kids suddenly ran at me: "AUTOGRAPH!" I've never been asked that before! It was so much fun ^_^.
And before I left, the kids wanted me to make another drawing especially for them, so they can color it, and when I leave that school I should make another drawing on the blackboard. And I will ^_^.
Oh yeah, one of the kids: "You are drawing DragonBall!! That's Frisia!!" And after a while: "It's Android #17! I know it for certain! Look, she really looked like #17! Especially the eyes!" And another girl: "I can't seem to look away from the girl... I keep on looking at her!"
They all said they wished they could draw like me, and I told them I worked 4 years to get to this. If they practised hard and would never give up hope, they too would be able to draw like this ^_^.
There is one bad side to my internship though... all those sniffling kids... I CAUGHT A COLD TOO!! Hehe, like it's such a big prob ^_^. I'll live.
Oh! Oh! Oh! Big news! I made sprites with bases by myself (I call them UFO dolls) and I also made 75 Sailor Moon ones. The Realm of Sailor Energy agrees on posting them! Wai! On the 1st of June (at the 4th anniversary- I'm so honoured) he promised he would post them! And he said they looked great! WAI! Just should not forget to make Serenay Moon ones ^_^. Talking about Serenay Moon... I should update! Story time!!!!

Hehe- remember that kid I said that tearing off the lit of a trashcan was so heroic? Well, the lit of the trascan is placed back where it belongs, and if you didn't know about it- you wouldn't even notice it! I didn't only accomplish my goal (making him understand how useless his act has been), but even more! He's ashamed of it! =D
*laughs* Today was my first week of internship. I'm very tired, but also very satisfied... and proud. In the morning they were quite busy because of things going differently: opening of a new project, me being there on a monday instead of a thursday and the actual teacher not being in class. Yes, you read it right: I WAS ALONE IN FRONT OF CLASS THE WHOLE DAY! And it went great! Okay, like I said, morning busy, but afternoon... ANGELS! I just wanted to paste a pair of cute wings on their back. They were adorable!
What more? I got the new WITCH. I love WITCH. Cool art!! And I can't wait till next thursday! Then I'll have the day off (and I'll finish Uumie's gift >_< Postponed it AGAIN)

This is one of those typical days where so much happened (yet nothing at the same time) to remember. Let me try to remember everything that happened since yesterday's post. I lost a file, but this morning I remembered it was stored on my own pc..... got to school.... and had to do the natureproject in the parc. I felt so...... left out. Laura and I-chan already arranged everything and I felt so 5th-wheelish. There wasn't much that I could do and when I finally had something to do..... I messed it up. Darn. I hope I-chan doesn't mind. I know Laura does- she is so.... stressy lately. I dunno what is wrong with her.
After that I did some other asignments for school. After that I would have some meeting with my class-mentor and another counselor woman thingie. Well, I kinda felt like being at a psychiatrist. No kidding. I don't remember all she said, but the woman said I have a very big responsibility feeling towards others, and that I have a longing to receive recognition for that (who doesn't?). She wonders why I have that feeling. I said: 'I have no clue; I have no reason to have responsibility towards them. They are only low and mean to me; never appreciate what I do and they could easily manage without me.'
(like many other things in my life: internet ~> I tend to feel responsible for people and wanting to help them while they don't need me. Most of the time I take the lead in things- especially on the net. And sometimes I truely don't want that.... but so often I accept that responsibility anyway.)
So, she wants me to look at myself and finding out who I feel responsible for and why... *thinking* Mm... each time I talk to her I begin to think more about me- and to wonder something is wrong with me. And she reïnforces that feeling- she says that I'm in College now, and I don't have to do things for others, like informing them there had been a change of scedule. But hello, I mean, we are in a class- a GROUP! Wouldn't you like it if someone informed you there had been a change of scedule? Well, my class never shows appreciation so one more reason why I stopped caring about them. That woman said I have responsibility feelings I shouldn't have.... makes me feel like a freak as well.
She also wondered how long it has been like this- being in classes where I didn't get accepted. I mumbled it started in the 1st grade/ group 3 or so. She was very surprised I noticed the big change in that time- from being a normal classmate into lowest of class. But even a nitwit would notice that. Anyway, she concluded I'm a very smart girl, and maybe the kids from my class envied my intelligence. Yeah right. I'm so smart. No wonder I barely passed my exam. No wonder I never noticed THAT was the problem. The reason I became an outcast MUST have been my great INTELLIGENCE! And people who never met me before immediately noticed I was supersmart cuz most people avoided me after 1 meeting.... Sure.... intelligence.
So, I'm a freak of nature and an outcast of society because:
~ I'm super smart
~ I care for others
~ I feel responsible for group activities
~ I long for social contact which I can't get because of the reasons stated above.
Okay, who too thinks that makes no sense at all? She did notice I was a very emotional person (babbled a lot about the inner me and outer me too) and that I have expectations of people which they cannot fulfil (okay, who doesn't have expectations of others in a group?!) and that I have the wrong image on how people on college should react. And of course that I'm caught in a 'visieuze' circle (meaning: if you think sad thought, you become depressed, which lets you think even more sad thoughts, which makes you more depressed etc etc)
BUT!!! There is NOTHING wrong with me! I shouldn't change at all! Okay...... then why do I feel like a freak now?! There is nothing wrong with me, but.... *points at all points above*. I don't get it! *confused*
I was thinking a lot when I went home and suddenly I saw a boy (about.... 10 years old?) who proudly tore the lit of a public trash can and all the other kids (girl age 10, 2 boys age 7 or so) laughed. But I was so..... well, UNIMPRESSED!
So, I said (Yay! I'm a hero!) : "Oh, how tough! You tore the lit of a TRASHCAN! A thing that cannot defend itself! How tough! Oh, I'm so impressed! I wonder if you will still be so tough if you have to pay for it yourself. Destroying a trashcan... how heroic!"
I expected a big mouth from that kid, yelling at me... but it stayed SILENT! He didn't say a thing back! O.o Maybe I impressed him?

Yesterday something else happened when I went to school- the cutest little girl (age 3?) was in the tram: "Why is that man standing? Why are you standing? Don't you want to sit? Don't you like sitting down?" So cute!!!!
Today.... there was a dead raven on the schoolyard. I felt the kids didn't listen at all during my internship, but my mentor was very satisfied. What more?
Hell, I'm TIRED! Oh yes, people keep on telling me I shouldn't go online. The people I talk on the MSN are all fake and most of the time are old men. Okay..... Anyway, I said them I trust my friends. Why should they act differently? They say I should stop going on the internet or meeting people from there.
Like I will listen to them. I like my friends!! And I'm gonna keep them. Besides, if I do find out someone is lying to me (like agreeing on a meeting and then not showing up, or being someone else) they will suffer a very painful death. Don't worry.... they I'll find them!!
But, like I said, the people I talk to MSN are my friends. I trust them. I don't trust my class (stupid selfish twinkies). Enough said.

My day today: quite a lot happened!!!
First we had boring class, then music class (which went kinda better). Then we had to do a presantation which went so great and was so much fun! The other students had to play a part and they did great!!!! It was hilarious!
Anyway, I then had crafts. I made something while hardly doing my best for it. Grade: 7 (out of 10). Thanks Stevo!!!! Hehe, I'll make a picture out of it. It's so sucky, but okay. I had good reasons so I got a 7 instead of a 6 =P.
On the way back I went with the tram. We have 2 points where people think they can go before the tram crosses. So, the tram has to make a last minute break a lot of times. This time too. But this time.... the car was too slow. =S. So, I had my very first accident in the tram. I was in the back, so I didn't see it, but my friend I-chan saw it! She was quite calm and I saw the driver was not injured- well, at least not visible. He was very shaken and dizzy, but that was normal! The guy had been hit by a tram! He was very lucky to have so little.
So, I went to the busstop, which was near. I thought I was so calm, but I noticed it did affect me. In the bus the driver asked: "Is everyone out?" But no one replied, so I yelled through the bus: "Is everybody out?!" I've never done that before. "Yes, everyone is out." When the bus went on I asked through the whole bus: "Can anyone push the stop button for me, I can't reach it." It took a whole 15 seconds before 1 person decided to do it- all were waiting for each other =S. Makes me wonder... what will happen if a reall accident would happen? Would they all wait till someone else called the ambulance?
Oh, btw, it was the first time I had to jump out of a tram... and I'm afraid of heights! Why didn't anyone help me when I asked for it?! Jeez..........
Anyway, it was kinda..... fun? Is that a right word? Anyway, I can't stop talking about it!!! WAI!

My day sucked. And yesterday too. Yesterday was filled with stress and meaningless lessons and today.... well.....
At the beginning of the year I had a different schoolmentor than the one I have now. When I got my other one, he completely stopped caring about us. One day I had a nervous breakdown and he knew that! (I was in the same room) But, he NEVER, he never even turned around!! He just went on working!
And now I want to be in a project next year, but I have to come to a meeting on a day I have internship! So, I mailed him: 'I'm sorry, but I have internship. I can't come.' His reply: 'Try to swap with someone'. In other words: 'Not my problem- solve it yourself'. So, HE causes a problem and I have to solve it.
After that, a friend asks me to wait for him- he would be done in 10 minutes. Finally, after HALF AN HOUR, he stands up. And when I finally thought: wai, we're gonna go- FINALLY! Oh wait- he had to say good bye to a friend who was behind the counter. But, she was busy and he patiently waited for his turn..which almost took 10 minutes. Just for a simply: 'bye'.
When we FINALLY got out of the building we saw the tram coming. "Mm... shall we take the next one?" Me: Hell no! I already waited this long, I want to go home now!
So, we managed to get the tram. His name? J-guy..... surprise huh?
I told some of my friends: the first who brings bad news is gonna get the whole load over him- no matter what he or she said. I can't handle any more bad news.
Good news: I DID HOMEWORK! YAY ME!

I close my eyes,
afraid of what I'll find.
How can people expect me to see,
when others are so blind.'
I went to my swimming club's volunteer night. They had a party for us (I'm a volunteer there) and I was very happy to see Karin, from my work, wasn't there. I had quite a lot of fun until we heard what we would do that night: Petanque.
Most people know Petanque as Jeu des Boules (just hope I spelled everything right); where you have to throw your balls close to 1 tiny wooden ball (Often played in France). There is just one tiny thing: When a game includes balls, I suck at it. I can't play any ball game!!
If it wasn't bad enough that we would play a game I suck at, they HAD to make it a competition, with prizes, as well as a prize for the WORST player. Not only that, we couldn't pick teams ourselves so I was put with 1 person I knew against a whole pile of people I didn't know. And in the 2nd competition I didn't knew any of my team members.
That depresses me. It takes the fun away from me. Not only that, the first 2 rounds I never scored at all. We held a 3rd round since we had time left and I did score a few points. It's good to have your father as an opponent. He was so annoying I threw his balls away =D.
So, that was the only fun part. And when we had a break, no one even noticed how silent I was. I missed my best friends. When the prizes were handed out I was so afraid I would be the worst. Luckily I wasn't. I was 38 out of... 42 or so? This sucks. That depresses me even more! It just prooves how much I suck at ball games! The only game I usually play with a dash of success is DodgeBall; since I can dodge really well. I sometimes end up being the only player left.
When we went home my dad said that maybe it was a nice idea to go out more often. I told him what those boys did a few posts ago. I asked him if he knew how it feels to go out and only hear insults coming your way. Boys only make fun of me and even being with my friends doesn't matter.
So I asked him once more: 'Do you know how that feels? That boys make pig sounds? That boys tell you you are sexy and that they want to go out with you, and then laugh their lunges out? Do you know that?' He didn't. I don't think he understands anyway. For the first time in ages I went to bed crying.
And I still feel like crying. I so want to live, but how can I live in a world with so much shallow people?

Sailor Moon didn't come today. I was very pissed; but suddenly someone came on MSN. Not that she's in my list- but maybe some good spirit from above send her. She told me Sailor Moon would come TOMORROW on 9 am! If she hadn't talked to me; I wouldn't have known! Oe- better tell another friend that too!!

Karin, my sweet whiney woman from work (she is THIS close to getting a certain nickname starting with a B) was sarcastic to me again today! And the worst thing is- I might see her tonight at a celebration as well >_< Ewh!
And I forgot to tell you something about thursday.... my goodness.... grown men.... ARE JUST LIKE TEENAGE WOMEN!
Man 1: 'So, what do you use to get your skin soft?'
Man 2: 'I use unionbalm; it's fat enough.'
Man 3: 'I agree, it's very good for your skin.'
Man 1: 'Oh, okay, then I'll try it.'
Man 3: 'I'm wondering, what do you guys think of this aftershave?'
Man 1: 'It's nice; you'd better not use too much.'
Man 2: 'I like it! What brand is it?'
O.o Okay, is the world gone crazy?!?! That's women-talk!!! Coming out of the mouth of grown men!!! Wack!

You should live in Flameon... lots of nice nature
and loads of forests. You'll also find small
authentic villages everywhere. Flameon is a big
continent, but because of so many forests and
other nature, not too many people live there...
Natural...


In what Bo Continent would you live?
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And I want a big house near a lake too!!

Wow! This is the second time I hate a teacher... and the rest of my class agrees with me! I already hated my writings teacher, but my music teacher is so...... I can not write it down; only make a sound of it. Anyway, each moment she talks I get the nerve to just take out my shoes and throw it at her head. She always lets us do useless things and we said that. Haha! She was pissed =D.
We also had to learn how to play a song. I finally managed to write down all the notes in words and found 2 accords when she suddenly yelled: Okay, let's do another song! I barely managed to get the first one! She hardly gives us any time to practise and then expects us to be perfect?! No wonder everybody takes such an easy piece (2 notes). I think I'm gonna dig up my own keyboard- then at least I'll be able to practise!!
Stupid woman. And she ALWAYS claims she doesn't sing high. Hello?! No human being can reach THAT tone! (Okay, the Bee Gees can- I think that should tell you about the height). Next week she wants to use the first half of the lesson to sing. Just to sing. Nobody knows why. It's not even something we have to do! We can use or time more valuable like, for example: practising! I bet a lot of people will come late in class. If we didn't have to come, hardly anyone would come at all.
And, of course, let me express how much I hate arrogant, immature, rude high school boys! I thought I would be rid of all the insults, but nooooooo. When boys see me they suddenly make pig sounds. Not that it's an original insult- they already did that when I was 7 years old.
So to all the people out there: I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry that I'm not perfect! If you have an ideal version of me in your head, just forget it. I could never compete with that ideal version. That's the downside of internet. You tend to create an ideal version of someone. And 9 out of 10 times when you see the real person you get dissappointed. So, I'm sorry for dissappointing you guys. Really sorry.

Well, how did that appointment go? Well, first I managed to get a train just when I arrived on the station ^_^. No waiting! And guess what... it went on time!! On the station I found out I was 1.5 hours early so I decided to go and find the spot anyway. Daddy drew a map. Note to self: don't let daddy draw a map again.
After 15-20 minutes of walking I saw a nice river. And suddenly: Okay, I see the building where I have to be on the other side of the river... how do I get there?! I ended up coming 1h early and I sat on another river waiting.
When I came into the office (yeah; skipping that boring hour where I did the thing Stevo suggested me: drawing- eh, make it sketching) I saw something really familiar. Let me first say that my dad is very proud of my darwing skills and the office where I had that appointment was HIS building (not that he owns it =S). So, I came in that room and my heart stopped! On that wall was a very familiar calendar.... Serenay Moon 2002 =S. EEPS!
Well, we talked we talked and we talked. She said a lot of negative things, but said that it was great to go along. There is just one problem. So far, there are only 2 options. Or I have to pay 400 euro (which I don't have) to get a room for myself, or I have to sleep in 1 room with 2 guys from around 40 years old (which I don't want). She will try to find an other solution, but my dad is very simple: 'If they won't find a solution you simply can't go along. And that is their problem, not yours. Don't worry.' I so agree. But why do I still feel bad about it? I feel like abandonding them! =(.
This sunday when my dad returns with my mom from france we'll mail that very sweet and nice woman. I feel so bad. But I'm a 20 year old girl.... and then alone with 2 strange 40 year old men? No, please not!!

I'm so blessed with the friends I have now. I don't care they are actually all made from words and bits and bytes, but they treat me a whole lot better than the flesh kind of people. Thank you all, for being there.
I'm listning to 'When she goes na-na-na-na' and I love that song ^_^. So cute! Anyway, lemme tell about yesterday. Yesterday was so filled with stuff I couldn't even reply to all my mails! It also has to do with an old game I picked back up: Dungeon Keeper. My fav game! If I would tell you what it was about, I would scare the heck out of you ^_^. I never said I was an Angel ^_^.
Talking about Angel- I forgot to program the VCR for Charmed, Buffy and Angel last night. I bet you would all say: And, what's the big problem? Well, the problem is my sister and mom. I explained them 1000-s of times how to program that thing, but they keep on forgetting. Result: I'm the only one who knows to program that thing >_<. And if they forget something they say I shouldn't complain. When I forget something, the house is too small and I get a lot of things thrown at me. My dad agrees that they overreact. But hell, I still have that problem! So, I raced home after swimming lessons, turned in the VCR only 6 minutes late (yay me!) and then went out to get my dad and me dinner.
I also barely made it in time for school yesterday >_<. Closed down the computer way too late. But the stupid teacher didn't show up so who cares ^_^. But I did get late for another class >_<. Oh darn school, why doesn't it have a bell?! How am I supposed to know class begun if I have to keep track of time myself?!
What more? Today I have an appointment in Amsterdam. Not that I have a clue what I should talk about..... we'll see ^_^. So far luck is on my side. And I'm one hell of a talker- I can always talk my way out of it ^_^. That's how I passed a lot of my Oral Exams. =P.
To everybody out there who has finals or the finals are coming up: GOOD LUCK! Soon it will all be over and then you have vacation! And don't worry, after these finals you never have to do it again! 2 years ago I had mine, but I still remember and feel the stress =S.

I'm depressed again. And you know what the worst part is? I'm just talking myself into depression. And I know that. So why am I letting myself become depressed when I can easily stop it? Maybe I just need to hear that people love me. But, then again, I never get the answer I truely want. Because they can't give that answer.
Sultam, ya know, the jerk, now stole a picture from Sarah Jade as well. Any hackers who are willing to hack inside his webpage and delete those images for me out there? Just deleting the pics- nothing more! I despise hacking, but I now hate Sultan more.
I also had a weird dream, with a girl in it named Kem. But the Kem I know is nothing like the girl in my dream!!
I was back in High School and I was hiding in a closet with some others from teachers- just for fun. We left but somehow a girl named Kem (12-13 years old) became angry at me- dunnow why. She gathered up her friends and started to bug me; like messing up my locker. Suddenly she attacked me but I managed to defend myself without getting hurt.
The following days she and her friends kept on bugging me and attacking me, but I always beat them (not beat them up =D I only defended myself). Teachers were also on my side, but they didn't do anything.
One day, I carried my bike with one hand to my locker (I can do that! I am strong ^_^) and I went to the place where bikes are usually stalled to tie my shoes (yeah, that was weird). I was sitting on a bench and tied my shoes until Kem and her friends came up
again. I tried to ignore them, but they blew in my ear and one even licked in it! (ewh!!!)
I went inside and yelled to the teachers it couldn't go on like this! They had to do something, otherwise I might beat THEM up. I didn't knew how much more I was able to take.
Luckily they gave up, but that's when I woke up =S. Weird huh?

*sighs* My last day off... and I MUST do some homework. Some of it will be easy and fast done, other things will be a pain in the ***. Should have done more like I planned. Darn. But the things I didn't do should be done easily- yeah.
It's 5th of May today. Yesterday was Death Memorial Day, today is Libertation Day and tomorrow it will be 1 year ago Pim Fortuyn was killed- my god, that I actually remembered that!
This week is so gonna be a hell. Why? Well, most of my high school friends still have the week off. Result: half of them will be gone *sighs*. Not to mention my 2 super duper best of best online friends will be gone.*saaaaaaaaad sighs* Good thing is that I will have time to from FY again. Haven't done that in a while.
Yesterday I finished restyling the site till special V. Yay me! I don't check them for errors though =S. Okay, some I do, when I know I made some mistakes- but most not. Bad, bad me >_<. By the looks of now I can post it about 2 weeks after my final school day (june 19th.). Depends on how far I am then. For a lot of things I can just simply copy most of the things and just change the background and linkdecoration so it will match. Haven't done much sprites lately *sighs*
Yeah, I sigh a lot.
And now for a complete surprise!!! A NEW QUIZ!

Kitt, the Genie
You are Kitt. You used to be one of the main
characters, but poor you, in Serenay Moon's 1st
Movie you became what you hate most: A slave.
This time you are the one who causes the
trouble, but don't worry, you can always fix
it. You are hot tempered and hate being abused,
but don't worry. Have a bit more faith in your
friends!


Which Dream Paradox Character are you?
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What a surprise huh?

The Love
You are The Love, one of the rarest moments of
Serenay Moon. You are very calm and gentile,
and sure know what you want. You are certain of
your choices most of the time. Though, you
sometimes get carried away by your heart. It's
good to do what your heart tells you to do, but
not everything is sunny and pink.


Which Zach & Kitt Moment are you?
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I didn't cheat! Honestly!!

You're Kem!
Wow, you are Kem! And that means you're normal!
And that's what making you special. Sure, some
people consider you boring, but you can save
yourself anytime needed! You're smart and have
a strong will. Who said normal was boring? Go
Normal!


Which Serenay Moon Outer Soldier are you?
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I'm sorry guys ^_^. I did promise less tests, but here they are anyway ^_^. Uumie made them! I had to post them! And mine are with small pics as well. Hehe- I like what Demi said- like mother like daughter ^_^.
Talking about Demi... a certain microphone and MSN worked along yesterday ^_^. So much fun! And Demi's friends were even more fun. "Look what she writes! Oh yeah, she can hear us!" *types back: yes indeed- I can hear you* "Oh, she heard us!!" And I was so silent ^_^. Still.... I wonder why they brought up the subject lemons and that they are sour..... oh well!
And today has been my first day in my new block. I came there and my place was still taken by some dweep from another block.I had to wait an hour!! But I was done so fast! And then suddenly 2 guys from my work helped me too!! I was done so fast! I knew it was a tiny block, but I was done so fast!
And the wind.... ah.... the wind was blowing so fast! I love it when the wind plays with my hair. I love the wind! And when I came home... I still had energy! No, no kidding! I even had the energy to take a shower! Only bad side was that Miss B**** acted like I was some stupid idiot again. Hell, it was my first day on that block, how am I supposed to know where everything is?!

You're chapter 13!
First meet, love at first sight. It's a sweet
episode!


Which Sulfur & Jamie chapter are you?
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You are: "Fate never makes a wrong
decision." - Sulfur.


Which Bo Quote are you?
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Lookie what I made:


You are Courage!!
Cool man! Whenever there is action, you jump
in! You have no fear and hell, you live only
once... eh... most people anyway. No wonder you
were chosen as Most Annoying Creature in the
Universe!


Which Serenay Moon Season 2 Villan are you?
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Black Storm, All the way!

Oh, people should fear you. You have brains, you
are strong, what more do people want? Not only
that, you can use the nifty Shadow Rings! You
are so cunning! Too bad that darn Kem drops by
now and then. Gives you a heart.


Which Serenay Moon Season 3 Villan are you?
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Lady Ignis
You're Lady Ignis. Attitude, that's what it's
all about! Life is short, let's enjoy it! You
are very happy with yourself, but this is not
always appreciated by your surroundings. They
think your too 'immature'. Breaking the rules?
Hell yes! But better is to find a hole in them
^_~


Which Serenay Moon Guardian are you?
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Because of populair demand....My drawing of a tree!!!

doesn't work?

Try this
or try this (Togepi said this should work)

You can't cheat on a quiz you didn't make yourself =P. Thanks Uumie!!

You're Kitt!
Hot-tempered, stubborn and easily mad, that's
basically you. You are not afraid to show your
fears, the only thing you fear are spiders.


Serenay Moon Character Selector ^.^
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You are Eron Favory!
Fiery, stubborn and very spunky are the words that
fit you best. Try to be a bit more aware of
what is going on around you, though. Also be
careful and don't be too nave. You could lead
yourself or your friends into trouble!


Which Bo Female Are You?
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Miyuki Mayonaka would be your ideal Partner.
He will tell you his feelings straight away, and no
matter if you like it or not, he'll have you
eventually. He's very sweet and has a strange
obsession for your hands. Never ver lie to him,
then it's over.


Your ideal BO partner...
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You are Ray x Miyuki!
Sure. It all starts when one of them gets sad and
the other is the only person there to hug. And
then it's sleeping in the same bed. And
eventually the two of them are drawn together
like a bee to honey. In public, it's just
Miyuki showing affection, and Ray is kinda
scared. He shouldn't be, because everyone
accepts their relationship. This one is slow
and yet very sweet. Never will they abandon
each other, though it might seem that way at
first. You're cool, but you're figuring out
your way of life.


Which Season 4 Bo couple are you? ^.~
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I would do it the easy way, I would SHOOT them

How would you kill someone?
(Made by Steef- which is so not true!!! I would use a sword =P)

And I saw my neighbour when I was doing my groceries. "Are you certain you can take it all along? really? Because I can easily put it in my car!"
My reply: "I've been to High School. My backpack has been 16 kilos ^_^"
And, of course, the pin machine refused to work with me ^_^. hehe. Evil me, holding up the line!

Hehe. My little muze is back and immediately I write 2 !!! FY chapters ^_^. It's so much more fun to write when she's around. I always send her the stoy in pieces and she reacts on them ^_^. ('Look out behind you!!!!') *waves at Uumie*
Oh! Oh! Oh! I drew a tree last night! Yes! A tree! I drew a tree! And as soon as I know how I can post it here (since I haven't uploaded it anywhere yet) I'll do it ^_^. Look everyone! I drew a tree!! =P.
And this is just 1 test i had to post ^_^

You're Jamie Backbite!
Though there are some people who don't trust you,
you are the shoulder many friends cry on. Don't
worry too much about things around you and try
to be yourself, no matter what. It'll be
alright.


Season 4... who are YOU?
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And it's so wrong!! Eh.... actually...... no.... it's right?!? WAAAH!