You'd think I would be happy, but I'm not. I'm heavily considering to stop Shadowed Moon, the RPG I am in now. 70 mails a day; checking it 3 times... I can't keep up with it. I should be happy....but I'm not.
You'd think I would be angry, but I'm not. I've been in that RPG for almost a year, and one of the 3 players that always stayed active. But, they don't even LISTEN to my plea of please slow down! You would think they would say at least: 'we'll try', but no, they won't even try. It seems like they don't even WANT me there! I feel like I did so much for them, and that they stab me in the back now. I thought they wanted me there!
You'd think I would be sad, well, I am. I'm almost crying. I want to stay in that group, but I can't keep up. They keep on playing on while they KNOW I'm asleep. I can't help it most of them are American! I always tried to keep the time difference in mind; why can't they?
Why won't they even try to let me stay? It's a Role Playing GROUP- and right now I'm feeling kicked out of that group. Like I never belonged there.
So I guess it's best that I quit that group. If they care so little about me, and I can't keep up, why should I stay? Please, give me a reason to stay!
I can't see a reason, yet... why do I feel so sad then?
Monday, February 23, 2004
Saturday, February 21, 2004
Oh, this is so annoying. I just finished answering all the mails from an RPG group I'm in, and now, just 1 hour later, I have 20 new mails! What's with these people?! They are really nice, so don't get me wrong but DUDE; they seem to be online 24/7! Seriously!
In the morning, I quickly read around 20-30 messages. I reply to those who needed to be replied to. Then I rush to school.
After 2 hours of class, I usually check my e-mail again. Because I know I have to... Because I then have between 10-20 NEW e-mails!
When I come home again, around dinner time usually, I find another 20-30 mails in my inbox. I have to check my inbox at least 3 times a day to keep up with these... *counts* 4 or 5 other people!
And then, when I'm done replying- BAM; 10 more within the hour.
I must be the only one of them who goes to school and who sleeps O.o. Otherwise I can't find an explanation why the others manage to reply when I'm just done replying ALL THE 3 TIMES!
And since most are American, they even manage to reply during midnight...
I like this group, but it's really getting out of hand...
Other news:
Vacation has started, as well as throwing myself on my reports. I'm over halfway the 1st (out of 5), and will finish it tomorrow. One problem though. The teacher said I would need around 15 pages for each assignment. Eh... I'm now at 23.... O.o I typed so much! I just hope I typed something that made sense!!
I'm thinking about that if this vacation goes well (some will know what I mean), that I will go to California next year (or maybe the year after). Not certain though. Money is one issue, finding a place to stay a second one. Third issue is that I do NOT want to go alone.
Before people go yelling; don't invite yourself. I hate people who invite themselves ^_^/ XD.
Anyway, I have my eye on someone who I'd wish to go along but then... first issue is that she has to be allowed to go (which is already tricky enough O.o) and the second is money. Oh yeah, and she has to WANT to go as well XD Always handy.
More news? No... I guess. I'm really tired. XD I'm gonna draw tonight. I have a cool idea; featuring Liberty and Courage twice!! ^_^. If it works out anyway.
In the morning, I quickly read around 20-30 messages. I reply to those who needed to be replied to. Then I rush to school.
After 2 hours of class, I usually check my e-mail again. Because I know I have to... Because I then have between 10-20 NEW e-mails!
When I come home again, around dinner time usually, I find another 20-30 mails in my inbox. I have to check my inbox at least 3 times a day to keep up with these... *counts* 4 or 5 other people!
And then, when I'm done replying- BAM; 10 more within the hour.
I must be the only one of them who goes to school and who sleeps O.o. Otherwise I can't find an explanation why the others manage to reply when I'm just done replying ALL THE 3 TIMES!
And since most are American, they even manage to reply during midnight...
I like this group, but it's really getting out of hand...
Other news:
Vacation has started, as well as throwing myself on my reports. I'm over halfway the 1st (out of 5), and will finish it tomorrow. One problem though. The teacher said I would need around 15 pages for each assignment. Eh... I'm now at 23.... O.o I typed so much! I just hope I typed something that made sense!!
I'm thinking about that if this vacation goes well (some will know what I mean), that I will go to California next year (or maybe the year after). Not certain though. Money is one issue, finding a place to stay a second one. Third issue is that I do NOT want to go alone.
Before people go yelling; don't invite yourself. I hate people who invite themselves ^_^/ XD.
Anyway, I have my eye on someone who I'd wish to go along but then... first issue is that she has to be allowed to go (which is already tricky enough O.o) and the second is money. Oh yeah, and she has to WANT to go as well XD Always handy.
More news? No... I guess. I'm really tired. XD I'm gonna draw tonight. I have a cool idea; featuring Liberty and Courage twice!! ^_^. If it works out anyway.
Thursday, February 19, 2004
Hi guys, it's me! Missed me?
Anyway, a kinda week report.
Monday:
Internship. Had fun and it went kinda well. The children are supposed to learn a song for friday, and I know that song. It's a cute happy song!!! Too bad I have bad memories with them XD The music teacher that taught me that song is INSANE XD. But, then again, who at my school is NOT insane?
Anyway, when I went home, I was the only one in the bus! I talked to the busdriver, and that was okay, but wow... it's NOT okay to read a book while you drive!! I didn't feel really safe.
Tuesday:
Internship again. I wanted to tell you something funny about it, but I can't tell it here because some people might read this and then tell that to my mentor and all XD And then I'm in deep shit!!Anyway, it was okay again, copied a LOT for school and blah blah blah. When I came home I typed out 2 thingies (not much work), and the next day I found out that one thing wasn't due till somewhere else this week XD.
Wednesday:
Can you describe: hell? Because I've been there. Oh, the classes were okay and all (can't seem to remember what I did XD) but afterwards I had a class called English Skills; some sort of class I picked. Hell thing about it: I was done with my classes at 2.30 om, and that class wouldn't start till 6.30 pm!! And the computer room was open till 5 pm! POOOOOOOOR me!!
I started a big report, and I came quite... well, not so far XD. I also got an e-mail from one of the computer teachers, if I'm intrested in attending some fair or so in Groningen. Today I said yes to her, and now it's waiting if there is still room for me or not XD. If there is, I'll be gone next monday till wednesday. Yay... again no swimming... BUT, I get a credit/ point and all I have to do is attending it and make a report! So YES PLEASE!
Okay, then the computer room closed. I was stuck with Anne. Later a guy from class joined and oh my gosh... ANNE!! HOW COULD YOU! If he was starting about it himself it's okay, but Anne simply kept on asking about his ex-girlfriend who he loved so much, but that she couldn't see him as a boyfriend and all. So, broken relation and he was sad... and Anne kept on asking and asking! Nosy girl! She's the gossip kind of girl. And when the subject changes to her: Oh, I don't want to talk about that!! And, she's very dominant as well (Anne: I'm not dominant at all!!). And when that guy said his opinion about something, she simply stated: Well, I don't think it's meant to be that way. EXCUSE ME?! Having a differt opinion is okay, but not stating someone else sees it wrong!
And then, FINALLY English Skillz. To me the teacher had an Irish, English and American accent in one. To the rest of the class he had a Dutch Accent. (Balkenende English, but then only using English words). He thought Kim was a guy's name!!! EXCUSE ME?! Okay, I know Kim is also a guy's name, but he honestly thought I was a guy! How many guys in my school are named Kim?! NONE!
He also looked very .... yucky. Okay, I know I'm not the top of hygiene, but he looked... he kinda gave me the creeps and made me feel sick. He handed out the assignment and then we had to do a test on the internet.
Time given: from 7 pm to 8 pm (kinda). Most people need 2 hours.
Time used: 30 minutes
It was FREAKINGLY HARD! It was testing your English Skills!! (Lazy bum! He could do that himself but nooooooo, he needed to let a COMPUTER test us). The English used was VERY advanced!
Anyway, I got 70%! 88 out of 125 questions right! Yay me! It's on
www.churchillhouse.com/tests/advanced/index.html
for those who want to do it as well. It's LONG, ANNOYING and HARD!
Just don't do it if you go by the name of Uumie or Cat. Because I just know they will get a way higher score XD.
I saved the last assignment, so if anyone wishes to read that, they can.
Anyway, a kinda week report.
Monday:
Internship. Had fun and it went kinda well. The children are supposed to learn a song for friday, and I know that song. It's a cute happy song!!! Too bad I have bad memories with them XD The music teacher that taught me that song is INSANE XD. But, then again, who at my school is NOT insane?
Anyway, when I went home, I was the only one in the bus! I talked to the busdriver, and that was okay, but wow... it's NOT okay to read a book while you drive!! I didn't feel really safe.
Tuesday:
Internship again. I wanted to tell you something funny about it, but I can't tell it here because some people might read this and then tell that to my mentor and all XD And then I'm in deep shit!!Anyway, it was okay again, copied a LOT for school and blah blah blah. When I came home I typed out 2 thingies (not much work), and the next day I found out that one thing wasn't due till somewhere else this week XD.
Wednesday:
Can you describe: hell? Because I've been there. Oh, the classes were okay and all (can't seem to remember what I did XD) but afterwards I had a class called English Skills; some sort of class I picked. Hell thing about it: I was done with my classes at 2.30 om, and that class wouldn't start till 6.30 pm!! And the computer room was open till 5 pm! POOOOOOOOR me!!
I started a big report, and I came quite... well, not so far XD. I also got an e-mail from one of the computer teachers, if I'm intrested in attending some fair or so in Groningen. Today I said yes to her, and now it's waiting if there is still room for me or not XD. If there is, I'll be gone next monday till wednesday. Yay... again no swimming... BUT, I get a credit/ point and all I have to do is attending it and make a report! So YES PLEASE!
Okay, then the computer room closed. I was stuck with Anne. Later a guy from class joined and oh my gosh... ANNE!! HOW COULD YOU! If he was starting about it himself it's okay, but Anne simply kept on asking about his ex-girlfriend who he loved so much, but that she couldn't see him as a boyfriend and all. So, broken relation and he was sad... and Anne kept on asking and asking! Nosy girl! She's the gossip kind of girl. And when the subject changes to her: Oh, I don't want to talk about that!! And, she's very dominant as well (Anne: I'm not dominant at all!!). And when that guy said his opinion about something, she simply stated: Well, I don't think it's meant to be that way. EXCUSE ME?! Having a differt opinion is okay, but not stating someone else sees it wrong!
And then, FINALLY English Skillz. To me the teacher had an Irish, English and American accent in one. To the rest of the class he had a Dutch Accent. (Balkenende English, but then only using English words). He thought Kim was a guy's name!!! EXCUSE ME?! Okay, I know Kim is also a guy's name, but he honestly thought I was a guy! How many guys in my school are named Kim?! NONE!
He also looked very .... yucky. Okay, I know I'm not the top of hygiene, but he looked... he kinda gave me the creeps and made me feel sick. He handed out the assignment and then we had to do a test on the internet.
Time given: from 7 pm to 8 pm (kinda). Most people need 2 hours.
Time used: 30 minutes
It was FREAKINGLY HARD! It was testing your English Skills!! (Lazy bum! He could do that himself but nooooooo, he needed to let a COMPUTER test us). The English used was VERY advanced!
Anyway, I got 70%! 88 out of 125 questions right! Yay me! It's on
www.churchillhouse.com/tests/advanced/index.html
for those who want to do it as well. It's LONG, ANNOYING and HARD!
Just don't do it if you go by the name of Uumie or Cat. Because I just know they will get a way higher score XD.
I saved the last assignment, so if anyone wishes to read that, they can.
Sunday, February 15, 2004
I hate Valentine's Day. I'm so happy that hell is over now. People who talked to me online yesterday noticed I'm not always a happy bouncy girl. I can't recall the last day I had such a bad temper.
Oh, Valentine's Day was not the only thing to give me a bad mood. Several other things caused it as well. Annoying people who were spamming me on the MSN for example.
Oh, Valentine's Day was not the only thing to give me a bad mood. Several other things caused it as well. Annoying people who were spamming me on the MSN for example.
Thursday, February 12, 2004
Hiya all! Just me again. ..... Why are you running away?
So, in no particular order: things I wanted to share.
My school-counselor-thingie; as well as my mentor now both whine about me getting a therapist. They now officially used those words. My father wanted to talk to my councelor; asking her why it was necersairy and telling her that the doctor doesn't think it's needed.
As for the result; appearantly my mentor is still afraid of letting me talk to other teachers. Nani?! Excuse me?! Pardon me?! AGAIN a person has given me a false feeling. AGAIN someone who acts nice, and who I feels safe with, and then it turns out she's not letting me talk to other teachers; worried I will make mistakes by saying the wrong things.
But, I mustn't forget my mentor has private problems that ask a lot from her. And I understand that. Her situation is rough.
Today I saw J-guy again; sure has been a while! We spend the day together, and I showed him a secret project. He was really impressed of those 5 minutes XD. I also showed him a short Anime episode, and he said it was not entirely his style. I said that was okay, and after all, that was a GIRL's anime! (Sailor Moon Super S Ami's 1st love) ^_^. He does know a bit more about it now though.
And, my head is one big bowl of spagethi! Yesterday:
Me: What?! We have workshops you had to sign in for?! WHEN?! And I thought we had 3 hours off! Oh wait... that's TOMORROW's scedule. (I managed to sign in for 2 workshops though XD Just in time!)
Today:
Me: We only have 2 hours? What about that 7th period then? That's a workshop? I haven't signed in for that one... so that means we only have 2 hours today?
At least I know for certain I have the day off tomorrow!!!!!
So, in no particular order: things I wanted to share.
My school-counselor-thingie; as well as my mentor now both whine about me getting a therapist. They now officially used those words. My father wanted to talk to my councelor; asking her why it was necersairy and telling her that the doctor doesn't think it's needed.
As for the result; appearantly my mentor is still afraid of letting me talk to other teachers. Nani?! Excuse me?! Pardon me?! AGAIN a person has given me a false feeling. AGAIN someone who acts nice, and who I feels safe with, and then it turns out she's not letting me talk to other teachers; worried I will make mistakes by saying the wrong things.
But, I mustn't forget my mentor has private problems that ask a lot from her. And I understand that. Her situation is rough.
Today I saw J-guy again; sure has been a while! We spend the day together, and I showed him a secret project. He was really impressed of those 5 minutes XD. I also showed him a short Anime episode, and he said it was not entirely his style. I said that was okay, and after all, that was a GIRL's anime! (Sailor Moon Super S Ami's 1st love) ^_^. He does know a bit more about it now though.
And, my head is one big bowl of spagethi! Yesterday:
Me: What?! We have workshops you had to sign in for?! WHEN?! And I thought we had 3 hours off! Oh wait... that's TOMORROW's scedule. (I managed to sign in for 2 workshops though XD Just in time!)
Today:
Me: We only have 2 hours? What about that 7th period then? That's a workshop? I haven't signed in for that one... so that means we only have 2 hours today?
At least I know for certain I have the day off tomorrow!!!!!
Saturday, February 07, 2004
Okay, think with me guys.
I got my grade back from that final I started out studying way too late for. This is what happened:
For the first final this year I studied a LOT. I got a 9 out of 10. High Grade.
For the second test this year I studied too little (the last one). I got a 7 out of 10. 1 point above average (6; the grade I need to pass).
I have one more final coming up this year. Now... who can predict how much motivation I have to start studying early????
I got my grade back from that final I started out studying way too late for. This is what happened:
For the first final this year I studied a LOT. I got a 9 out of 10. High Grade.
For the second test this year I studied too little (the last one). I got a 7 out of 10. 1 point above average (6; the grade I need to pass).
I have one more final coming up this year. Now... who can predict how much motivation I have to start studying early????
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Hiya all!
*singing* Pirates, pirates... lalalala
Okay, I'm at school now. The worst project has just begun. 'Design an educative WEEK for an ENTIRE elementary school with your team'.
All right... eh... my entire team agreed: This was a nice concept, but in reality the most shitty assignment ever. We don't even know each other; how are we supposed to work together?! Well... that already united us ^_^. And we agree on a lot with each other. Concept thus far: Knights and Castles (Medieval time).
What more to tell? Well, each monday and tuesday I will have internship from now on. I gave maths yesterday. And the kids knew what to do! Yay me! But... the teacher told me that they only knew what to do, and that it wasn't interactive enough. But... they had to do it on their own! I just had to explain the exercises and put them to work T_T. She also sounded a bit cranky. I know she has some trouble at home and one of the kids of the class is also causing trouble but... WHY DID SHE WHINE AGAIN ABOUT ME GETTING HELP?!
I'm getting my life back on track and then she wants me to talk about it to a professional person and mess things up again! No sense! That makes no sense! Besides, what would be the use if I think I don't NEED help?
Warning: I'm gonna ramble very cryptic now. Because I can't spoil it and yet I wish to talk about it.
I've been spriting again. Sprites that won't appear on the site. A different kind of sprites. And I need to make LOTS of it. And I like that! Dougurasu-kun is also very nice and patient with me ^_^. I can be a pain to work with if it's about Serenay Moon or Forever Young- heck I can always be a pain to work with ^_^. Just ask Demi how much of a pain I can be XD.
Anyway, I'm almost done with the girls of Derak's gang; then I would have to make up the boys. After that I will make more random people and after that the characters again. Random people are important! Yup yup!
*singing* Pirates, pirates... lalalala
Okay, I'm at school now. The worst project has just begun. 'Design an educative WEEK for an ENTIRE elementary school with your team'.
All right... eh... my entire team agreed: This was a nice concept, but in reality the most shitty assignment ever. We don't even know each other; how are we supposed to work together?! Well... that already united us ^_^. And we agree on a lot with each other. Concept thus far: Knights and Castles (Medieval time).
What more to tell? Well, each monday and tuesday I will have internship from now on. I gave maths yesterday. And the kids knew what to do! Yay me! But... the teacher told me that they only knew what to do, and that it wasn't interactive enough. But... they had to do it on their own! I just had to explain the exercises and put them to work T_T. She also sounded a bit cranky. I know she has some trouble at home and one of the kids of the class is also causing trouble but... WHY DID SHE WHINE AGAIN ABOUT ME GETTING HELP?!
I'm getting my life back on track and then she wants me to talk about it to a professional person and mess things up again! No sense! That makes no sense! Besides, what would be the use if I think I don't NEED help?
Warning: I'm gonna ramble very cryptic now. Because I can't spoil it and yet I wish to talk about it.
I've been spriting again. Sprites that won't appear on the site. A different kind of sprites. And I need to make LOTS of it. And I like that! Dougurasu-kun is also very nice and patient with me ^_^. I can be a pain to work with if it's about Serenay Moon or Forever Young- heck I can always be a pain to work with ^_^. Just ask Demi how much of a pain I can be XD.
Anyway, I'm almost done with the girls of Derak's gang; then I would have to make up the boys. After that I will make more random people and after that the characters again. Random people are important! Yup yup!
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