Friday, February 28, 2003

< sings > Bright Eyes, burning like fire. Bright eyes....<./ singing >
Ever noticed that I mostly talk about things that happened yesterday? Well, yesterday I worked on the site I have to build for school. I'm already at 50%, while I only worked for an hour ^_^. I'll work another hour today. I also started on the stats from the profiles of Serenay Moon.
I want to restyle a few episodes today *sighs*. That is so annoying to do! And I hope I have time left to draw- otherwise I'll have to do that somewhere this weekend....

Thursday, February 27, 2003

Things that happened yesterday:
My dad wanted to drill some holes in my floor and I cleaned my room. Then he suddenly said: Mm, I won't do it today, but I'll help you move your closet (about 1.80 meters high, 20 centimetres deep and a meter wide) after my nap. I got upstairs and was so annoyed by this that I moved the closet by myself. Was a bit difficult to do, but not impossible. And after an hour my dad came up and saw that he didn't have to do anything at all!!! It's the second time I moved something heavy by myself just because I didn't want to wait ^_^.
Also, in the swimming pool, I broke my breath holding record: 59 seconds! It used to be 54, so I broke it with 5 seconds! 1 minute, here I come!!!!!!!
(my dad didn't allow me to do it once again, because of hyperventilation danger. I know, posted this already yesterday after that kinda poem-story thingie. Liked it?

Wednesday, February 26, 2003

....And while she looked at the blue sky, she thought about her life. Maybe she should've made more of it. Each day, each night she dreamed of a life filled with magic and adventure. Why? Why did she dream about it? All beings on earth knew that was an impossible life, so why dream about it?
She knew she had little friends. Maybe, if she dreamed a bit less about acception and just went out, she could have made more friends. But whenever she looked around her, she saw friendships come and go. She rather had friends for life. Would she still have that if she stopped dreaming? If she stopped being her?
With her cold fingers she touched the warm red. It painted her fingers. She couldn't cry. Only wonder. Would she be missed? If something ever happened to her, would people cry?
'But not today'. She thought. 'Today... I won't find out'....

My dad should STOP touching the computer- bwech- he always messes up. Anyway- new record holding my breath! 59 seconds! My dad forbid me to do it again though- because of hyperventilation danger and all.
I'm back! And where to start? So much to tell....yet.... I want to keep this to myself since it was so great. I don't want to share this feeling ^_^. It was too cool.
And I think her sisters liked me too ^_^. But anyway Togepi and I talked and talked and talked and talked.... and then she slept and I tried sleeping =S. I hardly slept ^_^. I simply wasn't tired any more, but then again, I slept my whole saterday away. So, Togepi slept while I tried to sleep ^_^.
The next day we talked and talked and talked and talked..... until she brought me to the station with her mother. We had a cliché good bye through the window ^_^.
And when the train left and I sat down... I missed her. Yeah Togepi,. you understood it right! I missed you! I had too much fun!!! Please be careful in Japan!!!

Monday, February 24, 2003

This is it. My very first alone camping trip. Okay, it's one night and staying at Togepi's place- but I'm doing this all by myself.
Actually I'm quite pathetic ^_^. I'm 20 years old and this is my very first sleep-over and the very first time I'm going alone by train. I'm so behind with things.
But I don't think about that. I'm quite proud at the moment. I'm really forward to today and I actually can't wait till it's 3 pm, when it's almost time to go. What will I do in that time?!
As for my illness, I'm feeling 99% again. I told you I would get healthy soon again!! I also cleaned out my hotmailinbox, so I'll be able to handle a lot (this doesn't mean you can mail whatever you want. I'm still very populair with the 'men, get huge!' and 'men, size DOES matter' adds)
What did I do yesterday? Actually I can't remember. I know it wasn't that much.
Can you survive 2 days without me? Or without a post? Hang on, be strong! I know you can do it!!

Sunday, February 23, 2003

Dancing and singing skeletons are scary. That's what I wanted to post yesterday, but when I came home from work I immediately dove into bed. Hehe; who would have thought- I'm sick (what?! But I was already sick last year!). It wasn't that bad. Just feelling nausios or whatever you may spell it and pressure on my brains. Now the nausi-thingie is a lot less but the pressure is still there- then again I hardly drank yesterday. And I only ate one buscuit.
Mwech, I'm going back to bed soon. Why? Simple. I'm still very tired and if I still want to go over to Togepi's place tomorrow I should rest.

Friday, February 21, 2003

I'm so populair in my dreams. People always try to kill me. Nifty huh? Last night they tried to kill me over and over again. And of course I tried to escape. First I transformed into Sailor Moon and Super Sailor Moon but in the end when I thought I was alone they threw a knife through my heart.
You would guess the dream would be over then. Nope, of course not. My brains is one WEIRD place. There just came a new me (while the other one was still bleeding to death) who had to win a diving contest in order to NOT get killed. Of course I won (the things I did! Wow! Never knew my fear of heights was over! Oh wait- it isn't) but of course the guy couldn't take it and tried to drown me. He almost succeeded but someone saved me. I think he looked like John Goodman. What the hell has he been doing in my dreams? Must have watched The Emporer's New Groove one time too much.
Anyway, at that time someone found my dying body (the one with the knife through her heart- my dreams never care about realism) and we became one again and guess what.....
IT STARTED ALL OVER AGAIN! But now with some more information. I had some evidence that could get someone in prison and I had to get it. I still wonder why there appeared talking toads in my dream.

Anyway, yesterday I tried to ease my leg down a lot. It still hurts, but at least I can walk a bit already. I have to let my leg the whole day so I can work tomorrow. And I heard some really cool news over the MSN. I'll post it at my site (you know, the Serenay Moon one).
And I want to apologise Demi. I've been giving you a really hard time yesterday about the 'your worst nightmare' thingie. I know you didn't mean it that way.

Thursday, February 20, 2003

I had a nice day at internship but it was so busy (running around since it was games-day or whatever you want to call it) that my leg feels half dead. I told my mentor that and she said: well, if you have a bad leg you chose the wrong proffesion.
Eh....YOU THINK I CHOSE TO HAVE A BAD LEG?!
I'm too tired to type.

Wednesday, February 19, 2003

what to tell, what to tell.... My class start at 2.20 pm; I have to come and I'll be bored like hell. That was about it.......I'm making a paper clock now; it's an asignment for tomorrow.

Tuesday, February 18, 2003

Dream Time:
~ Yesterday a bear tried to eat me. Never knew BOTH my arms fitted in a bear's mouth.
~ Tonight I had a fight in some sort of amusement parc. A friend of mine didn't want to talk to me any more. And what was the problem? I arranged they had discount. Happens to me more often- I arrange something and people get mad at me =S.

More news from yesterday? Not much! I was on the phone for about 1-1.5 hours!! *record!* Togepi called me and I was quite surprised yet NOT surprised. Usually I have no clue who I am talking to, but now I knew it!!!
Yeah, little news huh? I'll do a bit of shopping today and I want to draw. Yeah. W00t

Monday, February 17, 2003

This is what I learned in computer class today- on how to make a website. The CSS was: 'this is what css does and if you want to learn more: here is the site'. The pop ups are resceduled to next week. So this is what I learned today! Everyone, brace yourselfs!! This is what I learned!! :
"_top"
I have 3 more hours before my computer-website whatever class. I'm really looking forward to it since we are going to talk about CCS and pop up screens. I want to do the profiles in nifty pop up screens. Yeah- I'm wacko.
Anyway, the LAYOUT is made- but there is nothing really structural yet =S. Because I need files from the OTHER computer that DOES have internet. I'll probably let the gallery appear in an other window. It would look weird..... unless I can find a way to let it return to my.... no wait- that's not the problem. It's an other problem. How do I get a complete new screen on a frames site!!! I'm gonna ask that today... yeah.... That would solve so much......
Then I'd just need to add one link at the bottom of the gallery... that should work. *brain working over time when it comes to how to make our site even better!*

Sunday, February 16, 2003

My back hurts like hell, and since there is nothing to tell:
Neo Site layout is made; I still need 2 pictures from 390 pixels high and 105 pixels wide. I have no clue what to draw. I restyled ep. 1-5 for the neo site.
Due: June- July 2003

Saturday, February 15, 2003

My VCR decided NOT to tape Sailor Moon..... I'm very close to crying right now.
Nothing to tell so let's just mention I passed all my exams so far. Woopie.

Friday, February 14, 2003

It's Valentines Day, and I'm not depressed- that's a first. I also got a Valentines Card- that's a first too. And there really IS a difference between American Valentines Day and Dutch Valentines Day.
We Dutch people only give cards to people we really love, or who we have a secret crush on. Most of the time the cards are send anonymously.
American people give it to everybody they care about and want to send a card.
Same day, different custom ^_^.
I'll upload the Valentine gift/special/whatever asap; still need 2 little things from Demi. So, might be tonight. I'll prepare everything so it won't take me too long to post it.

Thursday, February 13, 2003

Mm, I should have saved the message I typed to the others. Would have saved me typing ^_~. Anyway, I went to the bus station early. So early... well, I slipped ^_^. A stone tile was frozen ^_^. I stood up and continued reading WITCH ^_^. Like I care (or anyone else cared- for that matter!!)
Had a very nice day- the kids are very intelligent, and also a tad cruel towards each other =S. And the teacher let me read 5 stories to them! This kinda proves I can read stories, otherwise she wouldn't have let me read 5!! stories.
She also asked it in front of the kids, so I couldn't really refuse ^_^. Maybe it was some sort of test. But reading stories to todlers? Telling stories to todlers? That is something I'm really good at!!!!!

Wednesday, February 12, 2003

*pinches herself to make sure she's awake* I.....I..... I got an internship?! Not only that, they KNOW I'm coming, the placed me on the RIGHT day and in the RIGHT grade?!?!?
*faints*
This means I'll be away each thursday...Just like the rest from my class!!!!! *iz heppie*
My dreams are so weird. I dreamed I was in France and we had to go back because I was late for class. And the weird thing was that my parents took the long way home; ins't of going france ~> netherlands they went france ~> crossing netherlands ~> back to france ~> going dutch again.
And I'm so sleepy.
Anyway, my dream slowly turned into a war between cats and mice. No, really. The mice even tried rafting to escape from the cats!! And of course it ended with talking cats who took a hostage and demanded all mice would surrender. And then my alarmclock went (of course).
By the looks of now I still won't have internship tomorrow *deep sigh* And I just KNOW this will cause trouble with my other classes.... makes me sad. <=( For the first time I'm not depressed about Valentine, but now I'm depressed because I'll have another day off, while the others won't.....

Tuesday, February 11, 2003

Hehee!! It seems people missed me yesterday! =D *hugs* I missed you all too!!
Today I told one of my friends I had written a special Valentine Special for friday. His respons was: 'But I thought you hated Valentine?!'
It was true. I always hated Valentine. I'm not sure why I don't hate it this year. Maybe... because I'm not alone any more. No, I still haven't found a soulmate (or maybe I have; who knows ^_~? If so... PLEASE TELL ME!) but it's weird. I don't feel so alone like in High School. I don't CARE any more that I have nobody. It'll come.
Maybe it has something to do with all those people who are so nice to me on the net. They hardly knew me, yet they took me in with open arms.
I simply don't feel alone any more.... thank you all!!!!!
Internet didn't let me go online yesterday *sad sigh* I missed so much!!! (like 50 e-mails). Anyway... I had so much to tell, nice dreams, teachers who say I'm really funny, and that I actually learned something new in 'how to build a website' class. Not only that....I HEREBY DECLARE I LOVE FRONTPAGE!
It's so easy (and it will so make me lazy!!!) I decided I'm gonna re-do the whole site this summer again. I so hate myself..... AGAIN so much pages to redo... *sigh* Why am I doing to to myself?
I forgot the rest. I should get a better brain.
They are looking for a 4th school for my internship. I bet I'll be free again thursday.
ANYONE WANNA BET?!

Sunday, February 09, 2003

I'm too tired to type a whole story, so just some facts:
~ My dad is pissed and I have no clue why
~ My sister came home this morning from her vacation
~ I went to the Gangs of New York yesterday. Intresting movie; and quite fun- could this have happened in reality?
~ Had a great night last night in overall
~ Strang Candy, a webcomic, has finally posted the Twinkies I send about half a year ago ^_^ However, she forgot who send them. I e-mailed her again.
~ I'm hungry, but I'd better not go downstairs to my dad =S. Not that he's scary, but I just know I'll do things wrong and then he gets even angrier at me.
~ I slept till noon today =D=D
~ I have so much to do today- an art piece to color and homework (which I also have time for tomorrow, but better start with it today!!)

Saturday, February 08, 2003

Me tired- very tired. Leg is tired- walked so much today- finally my whole block again! And I managed to do it alone! I also bought a new watch (since the battery of the old one dropped dead). It has a nice one with dolphins ^_^. And it's tiny ^_^
And I HATE the Cheeky song! (can't even spell it). It's so off key!!! I know I'm not the best singer in the world, but even I am not this terrible!!!! I'll upload my singing voice thingie soon, but I have to go soon. Preparing things for tonight- I'm going out with Cat and some friends! We're going to Gang of New York- can't wait to see Cat again!

Friday, February 07, 2003

ain't it great- they promissed me I would get a mail telling me if I would have a place for internship or not, and guess what: NO MAIL AT ALL!!
My mood is very pissed off again and I hope I won't get any new guestbook entries. Not because I hate those, but because I'm in a bad mood and I guess you all know by now how my replies are then
OMG!! I replied NICELY on a GB entry! Yeah, I haven't checked my school mail yet- I'm supposed to hear if I have an internship place or now. I guess not, so expect me to become crabby again.
Lately I'm having weird dreams.
First I had a dream where 4 people from America came to visit me; the 4th was a girl named Prya, who looked a lot like Lisa from my last internship =S.
Second was that I was going with some friends to an amusement parc and they changed into the Sailor Senshi and back. It involved a really small music box we used for transportation.
And I kinda forgot where today's dream was about. I know it was a weird one. Oh yeah! Now I know! I was living on a planet where it was forbidden for androids (those human-like robots) to have relationships and especially gay relationships. And I fought on their side. I even went to their planet- and Xander from Buffy came along. Yet he was infected by some tiny worm bug and suddenly chosen to be the prince of the planet =S.
Point of this dream? I guess being gay is okay. I don't see why it should be forbidden. (you can pull out any bible or koran and point that it's wrong but that won't help a thing to convince me. This is my opinion. I'm allowed to have it)

Thursday, February 06, 2003

..Having no internship kinda depresses me. Not only that, I've been so rude in my guestbook! It really bothers me! I keep on saying wrong things!!! *bangs head on the table*
I decided to use today to make a valentine drawing- it's gonna be challeging. And if I have time left I'm gonna do Queen Kem's request.
Has taken me way too long.
Cheer me up...... please

Wednesday, February 05, 2003

Thanks Steef!!


Standing In The Way....


Which Buffy Musical Song Are You?
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Look out below! You skirt is so incredibly short
that there is only one anime that you could
possibly be from, Sailor Moon. You are one of
the pretty suited sailor soilders... or a
random friend. Maybe you should let the hem
down just a bit to cover that extra inch.
People are staring.


What manga are you from?
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Why looks Minako like Setsuna?!
Well, I decided not to call tomorrow. If I do manage to get a place myself, and my school finds one too, I have to cancel the school I found myself and then I'd probably never be able to return there ever. Why? Well, how would you feel as a school? Someone calls you if you have a place for internship- you arrange that and that that person calls again: oh, thanks but I got another place. Baibai!
So, I'll call monday, if I don't have a place
It turns out I have a lot of pyromanic friends!! =D. A lot of people asked me if they could help me blow up my school.
Though I'd never blow up my school in real life. And what confuses me most- which is not this topic related- a 13 year old kid was killed a few days ago, with a gun.... because he threw snow balls at someone......... WHERE IS THIS COUNTRY GOING TO?! And why haven't they captured that guy yet?!
I just went to the internship bureau to ask if I have internship tomorrow. Answer: NO! 'We'll know it friday!!'. Oh great- that so helps me!! I'm gonna use tomorrow to try something myself!!!
*puts bomb under her school* School... GO BAI BAI!!
Good points: I have a loooooong weekend. I have no school friday.

Tuesday, February 04, 2003

Update about my internship. Tomorrow morning I'll hear if I have a place or not. If I have a place, I can start thursday. That would mean no giving up of my free days. If I won't have a place.... I'll have the day off thursday and have to give up 1 of my free days. You'll hear it tomorrow!!!!!!!
(my time: evening- Californian (sp?) time: before noon)
A conversation I had with my mom 2 minutes ago:
Mom: Hey, aren't you supposed to be in front of the tv and tape Sailor Moon and Card Captor Sakura
Me: Yeah, that's what I though too...
WHAT DID THEY DO TO SAILOR MOON AND CARD CAPTOR SAKURA?! AND WHY DIDN'T THEY TELL ME ABOUT IT?!
Suddenly they stopped airing it!! I believe they are only gonna air it on saterday *sniff*. No wonder it didn't get populair- Sailor Moon ends when the dutch schools start!!! Brainless twerps! I knew I couldn't tape it that easy with my new internship (whenever that thing may start *growl, growl*) but I didn't mean THIS to happen! They are gonna air it while I'm at work! *already practises with programming the VCR*

Monday, February 03, 2003

*sets school on fire* Litterary. I'm at school now- in my so called differataion modeule- where they are supposed to teach me how to build a website. *points at Serenay Moon* We're gonna use frontpage 2002- something I've NEVER used before- but we are allowed to make our own websites with whatever programme. I'm in need of 4 kids, dutch or belgium- under the age of 12. Anyone got little sisters or brothers I can use as test subjects for my page when I'm done?
And now why I put my school on fire (NO, I didn't do that in reality though I would really love to). I lost my internsjip today- AGAIN. So, I have internship thursday- yet no school to go to. Oh woopie........... *Iz very annoyed, angry pissed and what not more*
I cried my eyes out when I found it out and the school reacts so cool: Oh, it hapens more.... Don't worry, don't worry......

Edit: What my school also said: It's their fault (yet that school claims it the fault of MY school- ain't it easy to point at others?!) but you can always use that day to study and go another day!!
Oh great- so now I have to give up one of MY days up because they messed up. Not only that- a new period at school just began- I CAN'T STUDY YET!! There is hardly anything to study yet!!
This is so evil..... My dad is gone, I don't have to be at school till 1.15 pm and....I can't sleep longer than 9 am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *is very annoyed*
Anyway, I have school till 6.00-6.30 pm. They wanna teach me how to build a website.... yeah right... I hope they can teach me something NEW.
And I just won 4 euro discount at the Free Record Shop just by eating chips. Yay me... but first I need to buy something that costs at least 20 euro!! I feel a 'this is so fake' feeling

Sunday, February 02, 2003

I hate it when my dad wakes me up at 10.30 in the morning because he thinks it's time to leave bed..... IT'S SUNDAY DAD! I wanna get out when I want to get out!!!
Makes me wish I have days off during the week when he's not home.

Saturday, February 01, 2003

Check this out! And when I was in France, I saw a cheap Sailor Moon rip off too!! So annoying! Can't people come up with something on their own nowadays anymore?!
I'm gonna shock you all...I had a nice day at my job. Not only that- I even laughed!! *looks outside* No, no pigs flying...
But of course, B**** Woman, aka Karin, was annoying again. God, how arrogrant can 1 woman be?!?!
Anyway, It started snowing during my block. Halfway I had ice cubes in my hair ^_^. No kidding!! And there is quite a lot of snow already now! And it's cold *quote from Genka Yume: Brr, brrr!*
We might not go to my uncle's b-day tonight. I heard there might come a snow storm.... (blizzard?). That would be my first!!!! *is exited!* Not only that, than I could go online tonight!!!
So far it seems people really like Dream Paradox! Makes me so happy!!